Yesterday

What a day..

But I was smiling when the sun goes down.

Life is like that..

For the past one week...I always think about it.

Where am I heading to...?

Whats next?

What this and whats that?

Or should I leave it just like that..and see whats coming?

Then only think how to overcome it?

Oh..I lost my appetite since hari raya...

I don't really eat..

I smoke too much..

I smile most of the time...even when something not so good hitting on me..

Patient...its all that I got now.

Last night, someone said that..I am not being myself at the moment.

The statement makes me asked him why and apparently asking myself- why?.

We were friends since I was 16...I think we were more than friends..

We laughed...we talked..we smiled..we even yelled at each other...

He knows a lot about me..even without me telling him this and that..

He just can figured it out..Thats the specialty..

Our friendship is like "on off " basis due to certain circumstances... Hehe

We don't see each other that much..even we are staying in the same city..

But we are still friends after so long..

And I really appreciate that..:)

Back to the story...when someone who knows you well said something like that..

How do you feel?

and

What do you think?

I am not being myself?

Hermmm...

When the question - "Why are you saying that?" popped out from my mouth to him...

He just smiled..

and it makes me think that..

He might be right...- because he knows me too well..

or

He might be absolutely wrong - because people do change and like I said to him..Its tuntutan lifestyle..

Hehehe...

I can imagine his face when I said that..

Heh!

Glad to see him again. Really ;)

;)

Happens for a reason

I am sighh-ing since 2pm in the office on 5th day of Syawal.

Everything was so glooming this morning until the obstacles arrived in the afternoon until this time.

I am wondering ...

I am asking...

Why?

One after another...

Not only office affaisr..even life affairs being challenged...

Ok.

I am sighhh-ing again..

Suprisingly I just can feel something will happen while I was smiling in the morning.

But I just denied the feelings..

After all, the instinct is just another form of reality...

Then, I am thinking that everything happens for a reason..

I always have that faith and keep it in my heart..

Today might be a difficult day in my life and other people that related to me...

But Insyallah...tomorrow, there will be a sunshine and make me fine..:)

Subhanallah...Masy'allah..

Ya Allah...please show me the right path and help me to go through all this...

Insyallah.....

Kad Raya pertama.

Aku selalu berpendapat cara tradisional untuk mengucapkan Selamat hari raya untuk mereka2 yang jauh dimata tapi dekat dihati adalah tidak relevan.
Ini disebabkan aku da lebih dari 5 tahun tak pernah menerima waimah sekeping pun kad raya dari mana-mana manusia.
Kalis rasa dan tak mahu menerima hakikat yang diri tak pernah menerima kad raya setelah sekian lama.. Hahaha

Namun,Pagi ini aku dikejutkan dengan kehadiran sekeping kad raya diatas meja kerja.
Terkejut bukan?
Baru 7 hari di pejabat baru- sudah terima kad raya??
Hebat si kuliketif komunikasi korporat ni ya..

Boss kecik aku ketawa kan aku.
"Peminat kot??"

Aku dengan bangga dan rasa terkejut..membuka lembaran kad raya tersebut.

Hati luluh bila seorang sahabat baik di syarikat lama tempat aku bekerja mengeposkan kad raya padaku.

Haihh...
Tersentuh hati...
Rasa bagai nak mengalir air mata
Gembira dan seronok sekali.

Dan pagi ini jugalah aku menerima kad raya pertama setelah hampir 5 tahun tanpa kad raya mengunjungi diri.

Terima kasih Yui...=)
Selamat Hari Raya,Yui...Ampun dan maaf jika tersilap kata..tersalah perbuatan...yang membuatkan Yui tersentuh hati dan terkesima perasaan....
Duit raya Lea jangan lupa ya...Heheh

Dan kad raya tu aku lekatkan di kubikal ku...:)
Hehehe....

Share the great moment in the not so good day

I am totally forgot about this.
Yesterday was so rosy and glowing..
The mixture of emotion is all there...

But today..its a bit dull..
I try to let it go and try not to blame myself of my luck for whatever happened

Let me lighten the day for myself by sharing the best and the most shocking moment for me...yesterday.
I just wanna share.
Even, its just a beginning..there will be another 2 step to go..(which I am really afraid to go through it)
..but I seriously want to tell everyone about it.

So there it goes..


Wish me luck guys..(Hope the next session will be held before 20th Nove 2009! Insy'allah)
*This is why I am smiling yesterday*
Alhamdulillah..