Actually

Actually, I have thousands of things to write

Millions of thoughts to let it go

and

Billion of memories and actual secret to tell...

But somehow, due to certain difficulties..I had to keep it in mind and not keep it in here.

Life is easy- somebody says..

But we are the one who make it complicated.

Heh?

Really?

At this point of time.. I don't think life is easy..

I do laugh at certain times..

I do smile some of the times..

But what I always do is think..

Most of the times...

Tired. heh?

I practically do not have time for myself..

I really need a new place to live..

which I wanted to be called "mine"

Lovelife?

Half of my face is smiling and half of it are not.

Duhhhh???

Workload?

As usual...

Heh kan?

What do i miss most is-

Get a lot of sleep and more time for myself.

and I am in the middle.

Not being myself.

Again...there is an issue about the same subject.

What the heck??

Some of the people around me says that

"You are not being yourself!"

Ok.Which part?

I felt that no one could understand the situation that I went through now.

Some people might take it easy.

Its like nothing...heh?

I can feel that I am walking in the air and the feet is not touching the ground.

Sighhh--

Why is that?

Ok..I have an issue with myself.

Its like I can't think straight and surprisingly no one is forcing me to not think straight.

Well, practically, Life is like that.

At the moment, still looking for a room somewhere my workplace.

I do not want to spend my money too much on petrol and unnecessary coins that I have to pay for the toll charge everyday..Just to reach my office..

Well is hell.

As for now..I am taking it slowly...

I am breathing...I am thinking and still considering..

First and foremost before anything else..

I really need to get new room!

Thats all for today...Will be back soon.

Thinking and Considering

For the past two weeks, I have been thinking A LOT.

Seriously.

Thinking and considering is the main agenda in my life besides the workload that I have.

Too many issue I had in my mind.

Oh..I left the house.. The small RM300 room that Ive been rented for the past 1 year plus.

Its all gone.

No more housemates..No more cats and no more loneliness

And practically I am living in someone else's house ..temporarily.

Also currently looking for a new place called home.

Worklife? Hah! This is interesting.

What I can say is... Office is my first home besides the house that Ive been living now.

Great isn't it?

My officemates are like my housemates.

We meet each other like 6.5 days a week...and sometimes 7 days..

I do love it sometimes...yup..coz practically my life is more towards work and I do not want to give a chance for myself to think about my personal life.

I am considering.

I wanted to be given a chance to live by my own.

To lead a normal life.

and now...I am still thinking and considering..on too many things..

Sad isn't?

But when you don't try...you may never know...

That is one thing for sure...

So, now...I'm hoping for the best...

and I'll pray for the rest.

Tolerate the stupidity.

I never said that I am good in doing my work...

and neither am I so stupid in settling my task..

I am still learning...Regardless whatever it takes, I have to go through it.

Because in my field of work, there is no right and wrong.

The principles and the skills plus the knowledge are the important facts to ensure the task is being done accordingly.

However, I just can't tolerate the stupidity.

If you don't know...ask.

That is what I've been doing since the first day I started work..(Not only here..even for the few previous companies before)

Please inform...tell..acknowledge the real situations before you gets anyone into trouble!

But, I am wondering..

Why..some people, with the so-called great experiences in this line of work..

Give me the stupidest excuses...

Adooyyy....

Or...Some people are just trying to impress me..I guess..

I am terribly felling so HEHHHHHHHHHH right now.

The 2nd week of Raya..

Raya its already over for me...

Yes...but my heart is still glowing.

Till now...

=)

Thank you for those who makes me smile everyday....