Hello!
I don't know why, but today I googled my name on the net.
It drives me to this blog. OMG. hahaaha
Ah.. memory remains. I browse through the blog. Re-read most of my posting here. I laughed. This blog reminds me how I was leading my life in my 20s in various phases.
Single, in denial. In relationship. In denial. Married. In denial. Divorced. In denial. Back to single as a mom. No more in denial. I am here! Living in the moment and enjoying every bits of it.
I quite happy with myself. Alhamdulillah that after all these years, I managed to experience the life that I am living now.
So many great things happened. So much experiences.
I am still smiling when writing this. Reminding myself how naive I was in my early days.
Scared of what people going to say. Afraid of taking chances. Scared of trying something new. Focus on unimportant things. Not living in the moment.. Those are some of the things that I believe I should have done better.
I wish I have the current mindset in my younger days. I would have been a better version of myself, I guess?
But, Allah has set our life from the top.
Grateful. I practice gratitude everyday. Rarely regret on my actions these days. Because I will try to be as conscious as I am in my daily lives.
Well, I have completed my 2 doses of COVID-19 vaccine. Yay! Jaga jelah SOP and doa supaya Allah lindungi. In sha Allah.
Hey, how are you doing these days? I do hope whoever read this will be protected by the Almighty.
I guess I already get used to these new-norm.
I have taken control of myself. Be conscious. I put my focus on myself more these days.
2021 has become another challenging year for all of us. I decided to elevate my life.
Focus on the attention that I should put into. Being a good person. Lost estimated 16-17kgs (Its such a big achievement for me!), try to be a good mother (definitely not the perfect one! lol), working hard to achieve the work KPI while maintaining healthy relationship with the father of my son, my family members, my parents and people that I am dealing with.
New partner? I have no intention to get one so far. Quite content at the moment.
Honestly, I do think of getting into a new relationship sometimes (mostly before falling sleep at night) lol!. But, when the morning comes and when I started to get busy in my role as a human, mother, worker and servant of the Almighty, that desire is gone. lol.
I don't know. I guess I do have trust issue. Not sure if I can let other person to enter my circle of life anytime soon as my circle is very very small. We'll see. No rush huh?
Well, I noticed also that I don't have much friends these days. The closest friend that I have now is my baby-sister. We are more as best friend that siblings. We shared so many secrets and stories than I could ever imagine. Oh, tomorrow its her birthday! We are getting much closer since we are caught in the same single mom situation. But, we are ok. We got each other's back and I am forever grateful for the non-judgmental circle that we both created. Alhamdullilah.
Communication is the key.
I tend to speak my mind in a better tone these days. Be nice. Assertive doesn't mean that you have to be aggressive all the time. You'll get what you want as long your intention is pure.
I wanted to say more. But I am running out of time. My next meeting is coming in 10 mins time.
I don't know who gonna read this. But, I hope that you'll gain some insights.
Patience is Virtue. Be grateful. Ask from the Almighty. He will show you the way. I don't know what the future holds. But, I am praying for my success here in this world and aim for better life in hereafter.
I'll talk again soon. Yes, soon :)
Be safe and take care of yourself.
