Escalating the stairs- the ramblings

Looked up to the sky and wondering.
What if..and what if
Looking through the sliding door and thinking..
What if and what if

Too many what ifs has been playing on the back of my head since the divorce proceeding finalised.
Life has been a hell of rollercoaster ride for me since 1st February 2019.

Living day by day. Taking one steps at a time has been a mantra for me.
Sometimes, I feel like at the peak of the mountain.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm far deep inside the sea.

Percaya kepada qada' dab qadar Allah.
That's the Rukun Iman that I have to obey.

Another divorced case I heard to today.
While I am dealing with my own tangled life, a friend is going thru a divorce as well.

What on the earth has happened?
The big word D is something that I really hate to hear.

To my friend and the rest of human who is going thru a divorce stage..remember, we are in the same boat.
You are not alone and trust God's plan.
I am waiting for the miracle. Good things will happen and I believe that.

But now, I am down with sickness for the past 2 days.
Post divorce sickness I think?

It's been the 4th month..
I am still struggling. Really.

Ramadan is coming. Insyallah things will be better. ❤️

Best of luck to everyone.
Lea