I Hate Love

I hate the mornings
Cause I know what they bring
You get up and take a shower in no time, your leaving
And it sounds so selfish
But i can’t help but think
That if you knew how much i needed you
You’d stay cause

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I’ve had enough
I’m sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love yeahhyeahhh
I hate love yeahh woooo

I hate your phone calls
In the middle of the day
Cause all you do is remind that my baby is so far away
It drives me crazy
Cause i need you with me
I know its time for you to understand when i say that

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I’ve had enough
I’m sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love yeahhyeahhh

I don’t want to feel this alone
Everytime you walked out that door (I can’t help it)
I start missing you (I can’t help it no)
Wish I didn’t need you this much (I can’t help it)
But i love how it feels when we touch

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I’ve had enough
I’m sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night
its way too much

I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I’ve had enough
I’m sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love
I hate love
I hate love

Reality Check!

Cinta boleh datang dengan sekelip mata.

Cinta itu tidak mampu berdiri dengan sendirinya TANPA

cita-cita, masa depan, tanggungjawab, keyakinan dan duit.

Dengan CINTA sahaja tak kan mampu membawa kita ke mana-mana.

Lagipun, orang kata CINTA itu kan subjektif.

Kita lah yang mencorakkannya.

Konklusi- CINTA itu adalah perasaan.

=)

Politik

Politik

Bukan kat Dewan Rakyat, Dewan Negara ataupun Dewan Undangan Negeri je sekarang ni.

Dalam lingkungan kawan-kawan pun ada yang main politik jugak.

Aku manusia yang senang kena tipu dengan kawan-kawan.

Nak cakap hati baik bersih sesuci embun tu, tidak lah. Itu dah kira riak!

Tapi kalau nak menaruh syak wasangka, iri hati, dendam segala-memang tak lah kan!

Kalau aku berkawan- memang telus.

Apa aku nak cakap, aku cakap

Apa aku nak jerit, aku jerit

Apa aku nak carut, aku carutkan.

Kawan-kawan aku memang tahu cara aku berkawan.

Konsep

"Aku makan..kau makan, Aku tak makan..kau pun tak makanlah!"

Memang akan ada dalam jalinan persahabatan antara aku dengan kawan-kawan aku.

Mereka pun tahu.

Mereka tak kisah.

Mulut aku memang takde insurance.

Insurance company tak bagi insured mulot sebab aku bukan Angelina Jolie yang bermulot seksi itu

Jadi apa yang terkeluar dari mulut memang takde filter dari hati.

Alhamdulillah..

dalam keadaan "orang kurang upaya sementara (OKUS)" ni pun ..masih ramai manusia bergelar teman nak menghargai aku.

Terima kasih kalian yang aku sayang.

Namun, berpolitik dalam berkawan memang aku pantang.

Tak suka..cakap depan-depan.

Menyampah- sound je direct

Sayang- bagitau seluruh alam

Kan senang?

Sebab aku kalau berkawan, aku sayang dan hargai dan bukan sekadar difacebook saja.

Menyampah dengan politik-politik manusia yang kononnya kawan dengan aku.

Tak nak kawan..cakap tak nak kawan.

Aku tak kisah.

Sebab kawan-kawan yang aku ada sekarang ni kebanyakkannya semua boleh dipanggil kawan.

Tak main politik. Tak main protokol. Tak busuk hati. Tak ada perasaan iri hati. Telus!

Takpelah.

Mungkin jodoh kawan dengan sesetengah manusia itu sudah habis.

Oi. Kawan pun macam kawen jugak tau.

Tak de jodoh..takdelah jadi kawan.

Oh.. aku tak suka politik.

=)

Tangan dah sebal. Bengkak tak surut lagi. Tapi

Sekarang dah boleh mandi sendiri. Tak payah suruh orang mandikan lagi

Wehuuu!!!

*Kawan-kawan yang rasa aku ni kawan dan aku rasa dorang tu kawan aku..OK..AKU SAYANG KORANG eh!*

Jahit terlerai sudah.

Latest updates-27 October 2010

Permanent Lovebite - 4 stitches

The smallest but the toughest to handle - 7 stitches

The most horrible- 8 stitches

Total stitches = 21

=)

Teknologi

Dulu..

Orang beli barang..

Beli baju..

Beli Tupperware..

Beli barang kemas..

Beli semacam2 pun

ikut catalog

Sekarang pun sama

Boleh beli barang..baju..barang kemas dan semacam-macam benda ikut catalog.

Tapi

catalog online.

Macam Facebook..Blog

segala.

Hebat bukan teknologi itu?

Membawa kita selangkah ke masa hadapan.

Hebat!

*Tangan aku dah bengkak. Ngilu. Mak kata aku degil. Sibuk nak online. Ni semua teknologi punya pasal!*

Heh!

Emosi

Pagi petang siang malam

hidup dalam emosi.

Malam tak boleh tidur

Siang pulak mengantuk.

Otak ligat berfikir.

Stress menjadi-jadi.

Pening datang selalu.

Meroyan punya rasa macam orang baru lepas beranak.

Camni ke rasanya?

Aku penat nak cover sedih.

Aku letih nak cover duka.

Aku senang nak mengaruk.

Emosi melampau-lampau.

Menyampah dengan diri sendiri pun ada.

Esok nak pergi bukak jahit.

Takut.

Cinta

Mak selalu cakap...

Cinta itu macam PERANG. SENANG nak DATANG, SUSAH nak HILANG.

I'm listening to this, currently.

Kau kan slalu tersimpan di hatiku
Meski ragamu tak dapat ku miliki
Jiwaku kan slalu bersamamu
Meski kau tercipta bukan untukku

Tuhan berikan aku cinta satu kali lagi
Hanya untuk barsamanya
Ku mencintainya sungguh mencintainya

Rasa ini sungguh tak wajar
Namun ku ingin tetap bersama dia
Untuk selamanya

Mengapa cinta ini terlarang
Saat ku yakini kaulah milikku
Mengapa cinta kita tak bisa bersatu
Saat ku yakin tak ada cinta selain dirimu

7 days to 25 years

I just wish that this year will be ended faster.

I don't really fancy 2010.

I don't want any present.

I don't want any celebration.

Maybe I'm just sad.

Maybe.

Nov 4, 2010 = 25.

Tua oiiiii!!! ;-)

Bila Kau

Bila kau banyak fikir,

Kau jadi serabut

Bila kau banyak termenung,

Kau jadi bengong

Bila kau banyak teringat,

Kau jadi bingai

Bila kau banyak menangis,

Kau jadi sedih

Bila kau banyak masalah,

Kau jadi resah

Bila kau banyak sembunyi rasa,

Kau jadi gelisah

Bila kau banyak mengaruk,

Kau jadi beruk

Bila kau tak boleh tidur malam,

Kau jadi bengang

Bila kau banyak nak cerita,

Kau jadi pelupa

Bila kau hati tak senang,

Kau rasa nak terjun longkang

Bila kau nak taip banyak...

Time tu la tangan kau berdenyut dan makin bengkak!

Haiiiiiiihhhhhhhhoyoyoyoyoyo!

I Will Remember You

Dedicated to some people who used to share the same feelings with me.

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember all the good times that we had
We let them slip away from us when things got bad
Clearly I first saw you, smiling in the sun
I want to feel your warmth upon me, I want to be the one

I'm so tired,I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, we can't be heard

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
Gave me everything you had, oh you gave me life

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Ten Things from Thousands and One things to tell

1. You guys know what happened to me recently? Please refer to this

2. My left hand is still swollen. Have you ever seen "tangan babi" (please think about it..tangan babi ok?)in your entire life? Please look at my left hand now. I am typing using my right hand only.-Slowly. Amazing oi!

3. A total of 21 stitches makes me suffer. I eat using spoon- like all those Mat Saleh.- Classic! Can't move my neck to the left like I used to do. Skins are not as clear as before- Scars!

4. New IC, New driving license, New ATM cards but the same OLD ME with NO MONEY. Hey..I don't even have a purse oi!

5. They have found my baby Jacky. Alhamdulillah. He is in the PERODUA HOSPITAL, currently.

6. Need to find new place to start with not so new life. Any helpers?

7. I miss my office. I miss my colleagues. I miss my work. Now I just realized that I am a workaholic. I am sick of staying at home and do nothing.

8. I miss my BELOVED FRIENDS. You guys are the best. God Bless you all!-Special write up will be created soon!

9. I can't sleep at night anymore without XANAX- so called my new sleeping mate.

10. I still can't believe all of this happened to me but thank God that I am still alive.

....will be continued as my right hand and my fingers are getting stiffer now.

2010?

Alhamdulillah.

=)

Penat

Sekarang sebenarnya penat.

Jumaat dah rasa macam semuanya tak sempat.

Pukul 8 malam masih dipejabat.

Penat

Sangat-sangat mahukan rehat. ;-)

Oi.rasa sangat tak sehat!

Smooth Operator.

Semenjak budak kejam suka conteng itu ajar aku paste video youtube dalam blog...sekarang sudah gian ye.

Fav song of the day

7th October 2010.

=)

People behind the screen.

Since Ive been doing some "blog-walking" activities for the past few months, I realized something in common that "so -called" famous blogger had.

"Invisibility"

The just love to be invisible

Maybe they thought that they some sort of "hollow man" kinda creature.

What they like to do is..

They will express whatever they have in mind in 101%.

Then they will write about their thoughts to the maximum capacity.

They will tell jokes..stories and whatevernot in their comfort space which is the blog.

They tell lies in their blog

They tell their satisfaction and dissatisfaction in their lives in the blog

They tell the stories about their family and friends in the blog.

They posted pictures on their blog.

But none of the pictures are theirs.

=)

Funny.

People behind the screen- without the voice, without the face, without the attitude.

People could write anything ..even some of it are true and maybe most of it are total nonsense.

I am wondering why are they reacting like that.

They are famous in this virtual world.

People praised them

People love them

Just by the writing that they created.

Without get to know the real person in the real world.

That is the beauty of the virtual world.

People behind the screen.

Nice writing

Nice expression

Nice words

Nice jokes.

Nice quotes.

But

Without the face.

Maybe they just like their readers to play some guessing games. Heh.

Lets just read and makes them happy to help them to boost their confidence.:)