Thinking and Considering

For the past two weeks, I have been thinking A LOT.

Seriously.

Thinking and considering is the main agenda in my life besides the workload that I have.

Too many issue I had in my mind.

Oh..I left the house.. The small RM300 room that Ive been rented for the past 1 year plus.

Its all gone.

No more housemates..No more cats and no more loneliness

And practically I am living in someone else's house ..temporarily.

Also currently looking for a new place called home.

Worklife? Hah! This is interesting.

What I can say is... Office is my first home besides the house that Ive been living now.

Great isn't it?

My officemates are like my housemates.

We meet each other like 6.5 days a week...and sometimes 7 days..

I do love it sometimes...yup..coz practically my life is more towards work and I do not want to give a chance for myself to think about my personal life.

I am considering.

I wanted to be given a chance to live by my own.

To lead a normal life.

and now...I am still thinking and considering..on too many things..

Sad isn't?

But when you don't try...you may never know...

That is one thing for sure...

So, now...I'm hoping for the best...

and I'll pray for the rest.

Tolerate the stupidity.

I never said that I am good in doing my work...

and neither am I so stupid in settling my task..

I am still learning...Regardless whatever it takes, I have to go through it.

Because in my field of work, there is no right and wrong.

The principles and the skills plus the knowledge are the important facts to ensure the task is being done accordingly.

However, I just can't tolerate the stupidity.

If you don't know...ask.

That is what I've been doing since the first day I started work..(Not only here..even for the few previous companies before)

Please inform...tell..acknowledge the real situations before you gets anyone into trouble!

But, I am wondering..

Why..some people, with the so-called great experiences in this line of work..

Give me the stupidest excuses...

Adooyyy....

Or...Some people are just trying to impress me..I guess..

I am terribly felling so HEHHHHHHHHHH right now.

The 2nd week of Raya..

Raya its already over for me...

Yes...but my heart is still glowing.

Till now...

=)

Thank you for those who makes me smile everyday....

Yesterday

What a day..

But I was smiling when the sun goes down.

Life is like that..

For the past one week...I always think about it.

Where am I heading to...?

Whats next?

What this and whats that?

Or should I leave it just like that..and see whats coming?

Then only think how to overcome it?

Oh..I lost my appetite since hari raya...

I don't really eat..

I smoke too much..

I smile most of the time...even when something not so good hitting on me..

Patient...its all that I got now.

Last night, someone said that..I am not being myself at the moment.

The statement makes me asked him why and apparently asking myself- why?.

We were friends since I was 16...I think we were more than friends..

We laughed...we talked..we smiled..we even yelled at each other...

He knows a lot about me..even without me telling him this and that..

He just can figured it out..Thats the specialty..

Our friendship is like "on off " basis due to certain circumstances... Hehe

We don't see each other that much..even we are staying in the same city..

But we are still friends after so long..

And I really appreciate that..:)

Back to the story...when someone who knows you well said something like that..

How do you feel?

and

What do you think?

I am not being myself?

Hermmm...

When the question - "Why are you saying that?" popped out from my mouth to him...

He just smiled..

and it makes me think that..

He might be right...- because he knows me too well..

or

He might be absolutely wrong - because people do change and like I said to him..Its tuntutan lifestyle..

Hehehe...

I can imagine his face when I said that..

Heh!

Glad to see him again. Really ;)

;)

Happens for a reason

I am sighh-ing since 2pm in the office on 5th day of Syawal.

Everything was so glooming this morning until the obstacles arrived in the afternoon until this time.

I am wondering ...

I am asking...

Why?

One after another...

Not only office affaisr..even life affairs being challenged...

Ok.

I am sighhh-ing again..

Suprisingly I just can feel something will happen while I was smiling in the morning.

But I just denied the feelings..

After all, the instinct is just another form of reality...

Then, I am thinking that everything happens for a reason..

I always have that faith and keep it in my heart..

Today might be a difficult day in my life and other people that related to me...

But Insyallah...tomorrow, there will be a sunshine and make me fine..:)

Subhanallah...Masy'allah..

Ya Allah...please show me the right path and help me to go through all this...

Insyallah.....

Kad Raya pertama.

Aku selalu berpendapat cara tradisional untuk mengucapkan Selamat hari raya untuk mereka2 yang jauh dimata tapi dekat dihati adalah tidak relevan.
Ini disebabkan aku da lebih dari 5 tahun tak pernah menerima waimah sekeping pun kad raya dari mana-mana manusia.
Kalis rasa dan tak mahu menerima hakikat yang diri tak pernah menerima kad raya setelah sekian lama.. Hahaha

Namun,Pagi ini aku dikejutkan dengan kehadiran sekeping kad raya diatas meja kerja.
Terkejut bukan?
Baru 7 hari di pejabat baru- sudah terima kad raya??
Hebat si kuliketif komunikasi korporat ni ya..

Boss kecik aku ketawa kan aku.
"Peminat kot??"

Aku dengan bangga dan rasa terkejut..membuka lembaran kad raya tersebut.

Hati luluh bila seorang sahabat baik di syarikat lama tempat aku bekerja mengeposkan kad raya padaku.

Haihh...
Tersentuh hati...
Rasa bagai nak mengalir air mata
Gembira dan seronok sekali.

Dan pagi ini jugalah aku menerima kad raya pertama setelah hampir 5 tahun tanpa kad raya mengunjungi diri.

Terima kasih Yui...=)
Selamat Hari Raya,Yui...Ampun dan maaf jika tersilap kata..tersalah perbuatan...yang membuatkan Yui tersentuh hati dan terkesima perasaan....
Duit raya Lea jangan lupa ya...Heheh

Dan kad raya tu aku lekatkan di kubikal ku...:)
Hehehe....

Share the great moment in the not so good day

I am totally forgot about this.
Yesterday was so rosy and glowing..
The mixture of emotion is all there...

But today..its a bit dull..
I try to let it go and try not to blame myself of my luck for whatever happened

Let me lighten the day for myself by sharing the best and the most shocking moment for me...yesterday.
I just wanna share.
Even, its just a beginning..there will be another 2 step to go..(which I am really afraid to go through it)
..but I seriously want to tell everyone about it.

So there it goes..


Wish me luck guys..(Hope the next session will be held before 20th Nove 2009! Insy'allah)
*This is why I am smiling yesterday*
Alhamdulillah..

Not a good day.

Its only 12 pm.
But I already received few bad news.

Room issue
Claim issue
Work issue
Bad people
Housemates who will turn to become not a friend of mine soon.
People's behavior.

OK.
Devastated.

I just want today to be end fast.
As fast as it could be
I am going back as early as 4 pm sharp and
I hate my PMS.
Great.

Hope something good will light my life today..
The soon the better..
Haihhhhhhhh.......

May god bless me..like yesterday!
Make me feel happy again.
=(

Work.work.work

After three days,
I am working my ass off here.
Media Relations
Events..The big one is coming up plus the small and little ones..
Advertising.. and many areas more that I haven't touch since my 1st day here.
Oh not forgotten my feckin idiotic and the thing that I really hate- Newsletter.The E - one!
But that is the challenge!
It’s all about PR.
I should learn more and keep on learning coz I think I’m still a rookie.

Well..well..well...
I am practically busy at the moment.
Arranging for the luncheon session with those big shot and press before the big event.
However, I still managed to steal some of the time to write some stuff here.

Ok..work..work..work..
It’s so boring when someone keeps on talking about their work in the entire meet up session.
Especially when they are those people who are so feckin proud of what they are doing for living, how much they get every month also what are the benefits that they are getting at the work place.
Boring stuff huh?

Me talking about work? It also boring kan? Heh!
But I always adore an engineer..
Regardless of what types of engineer they are..(mechanical,civil,electrical...networking..bla bla bla)
I adore them.

When talking about engineers..
I was an engineering student..Civil..okeh?
Back in an early age..I am so into it.
Never wanted to be an engineer..but always wanted to be an architect.
Hah!
And I need to have strong basic skills of technical side when you have an ambition to be ONE.

Two years in technical school..
I never pursue my education with a strong heart.
Playing..Laughing..and as far as I remember...I never really2 study..Heh!
Oh..come on, schooltime was fun, right?

Failed my technical drawing subject and my Civil Engineering theory subject which was only graded as "pass"...it makes me think that I can't proceed with engineering studies.
Why? My mind is not there and I am just not one of them.- I mean engineering students
I can't even draw a straight line with a T-square.
Pathetic right?
And how on earth could I do that?

So, there it goes..
3 years of Diploma in Advertising,Multimedia & Advertising studies in Limkokwing -awarded with Young Achievers Award during the graduation ceremony
and
1 and half years with Curtin Uni, I can smile widely with my BA Mass Communications degree..
I think I did it well for myself..
Otherwise, if i continued my education in engineering..I do not know what I am now..
Keep on failing the sam subject or maybe keep on repeating the same semester after few years..I guess?
:P

But..that is it..
I am still learning and like now..I am working in my line.
To be better and to be like some of my mentor in my field of work.
Still there’s a lot more to come and I believe this will be it.

This is the career that I choose for myself and the career that will pay all my bills and entertainment.

Well..I am still having a little heart for engineering...
Not much...but at the moment..I still adore those engineers.
Including my school friends who are engineers..the real one!
If, I have been given a chance to be back at age 16…when I was still a student in Teknik Tg Puteri, Johor Bahru.
I will study to the greatest level in Engineering.
That is the truth.
Haha..
Life is so funny sometimes ehh…

Oh..I have a packed schedule this weekend. I should be ready.
It’s Friday! Yeayy!! =D

The first on 090909

What is so great about 09/09/09?

It is my first day in the office.
What?
Its too early too judge on the people here but..
The workload?
God, bless me!
Help me!

Too many things
Too many subjects..
Too many areas..
eh..
Too many lah!

I can imagine that I will be;

• Sleeping in the office..
• Smoking more than ordinary
• Sex life drown in the drain..
• Sarcastically speaking most of the time

and not to be forgotten..

• Stress all the time.

Ok.wish me luck.
What ?
The environment?
I can't tell anything yet..
The people?
No comment at the moment.

Oh..
I am in the middle of something now.

Busy..
Really busy..
Heh?!

Oh..I am now writing here using portable DELL.
God bless..
I am scared.
Really...


*Everywhere I go..there will be a cougar in my workplace...Haihh..why laaaaaaaaa??*

Mix emotions

Yesterday was my last day in the old office...

Handover done...

Ive cleared my table and already brought back my stuff..

Except for FAREtotheWELL party..

Yes...we still celebrate it ...even on puasa month.

By the way,

Today and at this moment..I am still in the old office.

Writing some thoughts and feelings that need to be blurted out.

When I still have a chance..

Mix emotions...

I am really sad to leave all the good people here..

The ambience..

The surrondings..

The people..

The internet connnection.. haha.

and I don't even think that I can write anything here as much as I can anymore..

Tomorrow..the new chapter will be opened.

New people.

New cubicle..

New place..

New bosses...-I wonder how they will be..

and the new office politics..

I am scared basically and happy at the same time.

To  be given an opportunity like this..It was a truly gift!

At my age...with my experiences as a rookie..It makes me think again.

Even the current place is so much relaxing..

Its so much easier...

I bet there will be more excitement waiting for me in the whole new place..

I am leaving it to god.

I will try to meet the expectation.

And today, I am claering out my mind..refresh my imagination..also let go all the lazyness.

I am ready..

Wish me luck...

and I am wishing a good luck to me too

Tomorrow is the day..

May god bless me

and

I really hope things will be much much more better than here...

=)

Hari terakhir disini

Sedih..

Sangat sedih..

Tak tercakap sedihnya...

Office suram..

Manusia2 ini diam..

Aku bungkam...

Habis dah story...

Esok buka buku baru....

Lusa dah masuk office baru...

Ok..

sedih..

Cerita kejap lagi....

Cerita Fesyen Baju Raya tahun ini.

Bukan nak condem sesiapa.

Tapi semenjak dua menjak ni,

dari pemerhatian aku di gedung2 membeli belah, banyak 

booth2 serta kedai2 dan toko2 yang menjual baju raya untuk kau

m hawa  telah membawa satu trend baju.

Trend baju kurung moden yang bahagian lengannya macam baju aladdin.

Ada getah di bahagian hampir bawah lengan baju tersebut

Wth???

Sewaktu jalan2 di Geylang Serai minggu sudah..

Boleh dikatakan trend baju sebegitu memenuhi ruangan bazar menjual pakaian hari raya.

Sampai nak bergaduh aku dengan mak sebab dia nak beli baju yang ber"trend" begitu.

Bukan sahaja aku..malah Ngah..Kaklong dan Syikin..rata2 tak mahu tengok mak pakai baju tangan kembang kuncup tu.

Aduhaii..kepala pusing tengok baju tu.

Entah kenap aku sangat tak berkenan tengok rekaan baju tu.

Cantik kah?

Cuba bayangkan kalau si pemakai adalah seorng yang badannya macam aku..

Lengan yang da sedia ada tak cantik..akan nampak bertambah besar..

Cantek ke????

Cuba lihat ini...

Adui....

sakit mata oo tengokkan!

Siapalah yang mereka fesyen begini hingga menyesatkan pemikiran pemakainya..

Kasihan la siapa yang anggap baju trend lengan kembang kuncup ni "TRENDY" sangat!

Heheh...

Just my 2 cents..;)

That is why I don't date JB guy/gal anymore.

That was my status on FB few days ago.

Ok..

Some people back in my hometown was really suspicious to know

-Why am i being so overly feel like that

and even some said i sounds stereotype.

Ok.

What the hell.

The fact is I do not date any guy  (and even I never date any girl) from JB anymore.

Why?

Why?

The history and bad experiences taught me about being nice to people.

I've dated so many guys who are originally from JB- Johor to be exact.

I met them with thousands of form. Ok. they are human beings not an aliens.

What I mean is..

the ATTITUDE.

the LOOKS

the BODY LANGUAGE

the SEX APPEAL

the CHARISMA

the whatevershit as well lah!

Most of the JB guy I met..they normally looking for

1. Sex

2. Attention

3. Servant

4. A girl who they can show her off to everywhere.

5. Beuatiful without brains

6. Great butts

7. Nice tits

8. Good kisser

and the list goes on..

I know , not only JB guy are like that.. and most of the KL guy are not a great guy so far..

But, lets just say... 95% of these JB guys that I met are...

1. Rough

2. Hopeless Romantic person or

3. Not Romantic at all

4. Got looks and nice dicks but no brains

5. He is his "mummy's son"

6. No future plan

7. Still staying with his parents

8. Love to make a miscalls to your phone but never calls u in a proper way

9. Doesn't want to spend too much money for the girl that he likes..

and bla bla bla bla..

Ok. Enough.

I think my writing will touch someone's heart..

Who is currently dating JB guy..

Who marrying a JB guy

Who are already have a baby with some sort of JB guy..

or even worst

some of my friends who think that I am "lupa daratan"

Hey..

I still remember where I came from.

Don't worry..

I am still in Love with JB.

I am actually thinks that JB is a great place to live..

But somehow..

I don't date JB guy anymore...

I'm sorry...

Its just..ahh....I just do not want to- at the moment...

Subject.

I am so sleepy now.

On my left hand side is the complete  1st season of sex and the city.

Yabedabedu.

I feel like talking.

and writing a lot.

Since last week, I had thousands of things that need to let it out from my mind.

But Im just too lazy...

Let me take a breath, picking up the mood and sensation to write again.

Coming up ver very soon.

Now, its the time to watch SATC -the complete 1st season.

Yipppie!:)