Monday, August 19, 2013

She is 23 today? Really?


I always see her as a baby sister.
The perception has never changed since the first time we met.
I remember that I was the one who wanted a baby sister where Ngah and Kaklong wanted a younger brother. I dont know why the 5 year old me said that when we were asked by Abah years ago.. ' nak adik lelaki ke nak perempuan?' -_-''

I still remember the 1st time I saw her. She didnt even look like me. Her skin is a bit tanned.. her eyes were bigger than mine...unlike me- her hair were curly and beautiful..oh..she didnt even cry much and she was a skinny baby compared to me back then. Lol
The baby sister named 'noor ashikin' was the centre of attraction.  The jealousy was blooming in my heart.  Being the last child before she was born..I was the fav! 
But, when Abah and Mummy explained...it seems like me no longer the centre of attraction among 4 of us... sad..so sad. Yes. I was jealous and blaming myself for not choosing the same answer as kaklong and ngah - which is 'a younger brother!' and Not a baby sister! Arghh! 
However, our 5 years of age gap with the responsibility given by my parents to take care of her when Mummy has to go to work has erased the jelaousy over the time.
She grew up to become my baby sister, my closest friend, my secret keeper and someone that I know will always be there for me whenever I needed. 
We grew up together and we went thru so many stages of life due to the age gap between kaklong and ngah. She had no choice to turned to but me..hehe.  
She is matured, very independent, very witty, street-smart, patience and funny. we were born in a totally different personality. It makes us more special when she always forgot that I am her big sister since I treated her as my friend from day one we met and maybe because I refused to be called 'kakak' or 'kak chik'. Euw!
Still, she respect me as her big sister. (whenever she needed to or when I reminded her) :p

A reminder appear on my mobile and a sms reminder about her birthday from Mummy made me write this. 

As time goes by, I never know that my baby sister grew up so fast (since I never acted like 'kakak2')..she is more firm than me and has becoming a woman who always know what she wants ( ya..ya..she wants to be married and have kids- thats what I know now..eheheh)

19th August , 23 years ago.. she was born and has brought joy to our family. Shes the youngest who never acted like one.. hehe (kaklong is much manja than her). 

Happy 23rd birthday, Teacher Noor Ashikin. 
I wish you all the best in everything you do..get HIS blessing and all your wishes will come true..soon!. Insyaallah
Thank you for being the greatest baby sister and a good friend who I never thought you will be. 
I guess your presence in our life is a bless by Him. (thank God I am not the youngest..hihihi)

Again..
Happy 23rd birthday , kin!
I am so proud and feel blessed to have a sister like you in my life.
Please take care of yourself like you always do...
You may redeem your birthday present next month, okay! :p

Hope you will enjoy the day with #ptl. LoL


*#ptl - part time lover (the indication that she always use to refer to her boyfriend)..i dont think he is a part timer in her heart anymore since hari2 pergi dating jeeerr. Hihi. 


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Monday, August 12, 2013

Purple-ish



I had a very bad Monday..
Nothing has been good in office since few months back.
In fact, the situation has resulted in me losing few kilos. 
To add with other nonsense..i guess I deserved a good de-stress session for myself.
Purple is the most fav color for the time being. So, after a good hair wash..decided to do my manicure and pedicure which always been the monthly routine.
Despite of shine buffing, I asked them to paint my nails nicely.
As usual, lost appetite towards food and I feel so weak and sleepy.
Might call it a night soon!
Yes..i dont fancy Monday. Never like Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and quarter of Friday..
I just love the weekend.
How was your Monday so far?
Hope its better than mine!

Friday, come faster!

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Syawal 2013

Nothing fancy. I am becoming a person who doesn't fancy Raya anymore..
Anyway.....Selamat Hari Raya!

Us,- Atuk Jah, Tengku, Abah, Kaklong, Todt, Yaya and Keen ..without Ngah...(as usual) and no more Atuk Bak in the picture.. :( We missed him..

 I feel your love- abah! :D

Tiga duri dihati Tengku. hihi

 My hijabster baby sister! love!

Its 5th Syawal..me already in the office. Le sighhhhhhh...... -_-"

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Heartbreaker

Its not something that I am proud off. I am just being honest to myself and anyone related.
Who likes to be hurt? Gila! No one.
But I guess, I have to be cruel to be kind.
Since a lot has been happening for the past few months.. I guess being a heartbreaker (again) is one of the solution to clear some uncertainties.
I am not afraid of the criticism from others based on my action..its just because I do not want to be the reason of unhappiness. 

'The beginning of the end' has just began.

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