Goodbye October

Have you ever encountered this scenario?

You have a lot of things that you wanted to share with the whole world but you lost words for each stories?

This is me in front of my laptop in the office..counting down the time to 5.30pm

But still, I cant even came out with a proper sentence to tell what has been happening for on October.

Writer's block? Fuck it. I am not a writer..

Oh. Yesterday was Wee wee's 25th birthday.

Celebrated with our exclusive spa treatments, huge Korean lunch, watched Ted in cinema and macaroons eating, talking bla bla bla..

Passed her the present and really hope that she likes it :)

I am stuck with my words. Now.

Wanted to let it out..but I just don't know how to put in a sentence.

November, please be nice since October has been very bad to me. :)

Turning 27 in 4 days time. I'm not excited at all.

No celebration needed..no present that I ever wanted this year.

I do not want anything. Really. For real.

Odd isn't? :P

Thank you for all the lessons..

Goodbye October 2012.

Tata!

Compromise

How do we manage to live up to this very day?
We planed, we choke, we tried, we stumbled, we laughed, we execute, we letting it be and too many other ways that could satisfy us.
In fact- some of the plan doesn't work out.
Again, I am afraid of planning.(As usual)

Compromising things in life is the biggest challenge in life.
Sacrificing and accept things as it is also the hardest portion in keeping ourself alive.

Here I am, on my bed.
I was here since 8.15pm.. On the mid-week!? And I couldn't even sleep..
Tried few times, but it didn't worked out. :p
Suprisingly, for the past 3 days.. What I did was..
Go to work from home - go back to home from office..
Every morning, the only place that I've stopped by before reaching the office was the small mamak shop..just to refill my nicotine box. LOL.

Compromise..compromise..for what?
I don't know what happen this week.
It started since last weekend..
Things are not falling as I was expected.
Every year, October was never treat me well. -_-
I don't know whyyyy. ;)

But that's life.
There is ups and there will be the down side of it.
Its like a ferris wheels where you might feel the excitement when you were on top and you feel bored when you at the bottom part.

Anyway..Its been a long time since I've updated my facebook status.
The interest wasn't there anymore..but I do keep track on what my circle of friends are up to..
And finally, I've updated my status with ':)'
Just that.
No particular reason.

Nothing excites me so far.
Waiting to be 27 on the 4th next month and the surgery on the 6th.. I can't wait to get over and done with it!
Hospital sucks, anyway..
Been a sick person is definitely not 'fun'.

I'm trying to get myself sleep here..
Tomorrow will be another day of routine.
I hate the word 'routine', by the way.. -____-''
But in life, you need to compromise with 1001 things..You just got to live with it ;)

Oh..Its the 17th... and I have few birthday to be celebrated this month! ;)

Good night peeps! Praying for a great day tomorrow!


•Lea@Alia•Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.

For your viewing pleasure. lol

I wanted to upload some photos taken during the surgery. Since my case is rare (due to the previous doctor's negligence- who didn't bother to realised that my nerve almost disconnected when I was attacked in 2010..BLERGGHH!)

However, I afraid that those photos might given nightmares..so..I decided not to..:)

I just keep the photos for my viewing pleasure. :P

Thanks to the nurses at Level 2, Block D and Microsurgery centre- Hospital Pantai Kuala Lumpur who took care of me during my stay. (I think I might see them again next month! hehehehe).  

19/9/12- Before the surgery: Cheerful as a cheerleader.

The result: Painful. Really. This was taken on the 20/9/12 during the first dressing treatment. It is beautiful! Thank you Dr Iskandar!

19/9/2012- After the 2 hours surgery: Still cheerful as a cheerleader! I was stoned. Results of the GA

Who knows...after 2 years...its all coming back to me.
Do take care of yourself, people. Be careful where you are..

Hello October!

One surgery, 2 days in hospital, few follow-up appointments with the doctor and many physiotherapy session doesn't make me down all time.(sometimes)

I didn't even tell anybody except family about it until I was discharged from hospital. Admitted - alone.

Just because I didn't anyone to come to visit and make a big fuss of it.. Its just a surgery.. hand surgery. :)

Besides my slip disc, the doctor discover that my nerve is almost disconnected. My small little right finger. That is the finger which been slashed during the mugged incident 2 years ago.

Two disease which is not related to each other came into my life at the same time.

4 days after the surgery, I came back to work during MC. Finishing off the workload and few events, I only finishing off my real MC in JB on the last week.

September has taught me well.

Patient is no longer here with me.

I burst the anger without realizing it. Bad.

Emotionally drown just because for few weeks I can only use one hand to eat, drive and live!

Living as a human with temporarily disability made me wonder how beautiful life is.

I still can laugh, go out  meeting friends and go to the office as usual.

I refuse to feel sick most of the time since I do not want to be labelled as a sick person.

Continuing my physiotherapy for my lil finger, I will undergo another surgery early next month.

This time around, I decided to tell everyone I know.

The laser slip disc surgery. Quite serious, isnt? Hahaha.

Two days after my 27th birthday, I'll be admitted in Pantai..(yet again)

PHKL has been my 2nd home since 2 months ago. Impressive? Haha..

Two areas in the hospital- Spine and Joint Centre also Micro Surgery Hand Centre can be considered as the most places that I've visited  other than my home and workplace.

The nurses and doctors are great. They treated me like a friend -not a patient since I always tell them- 

My name is Alia and dont refer me as "patient". :)

Furthermore, the service are excellent and of course, it worth every amount that youve paid.

Honestly - this sickness made me broke :/ LOL.

I am ok. Always try to tell myself that Im not sick.

When you are sick, there are two things left...which is your mindset to toughen your spirit and more money!

Seriously, sympathy doesn't pay your hospital bills and money has a very huge advantage on this.:)

:) Hello October!