Thursday, February 21, 2013

Bertemu tanpa Berjumpa

Bertemu tanpa berjumpa.
Odd sungguh rasanya.
Tapi keistimewaan ini hanya aku dan kawan aku yang mengong ini yang tahu.

Dunia siber mampu mendekatkan yang jauh.
Mampu buat manusia ketawa walaupun tanpa suara.
Mampu juga buat manusia lupa kerja akibat lawak-lawak bangang seorang kawan.

Lama dah tak berjumpa dia..
Tapi setiap pagi..setiap hari kami bercakap macam duduk sebelah menyebelah.
Perkembangan setiap hari  tak pernah tertinggal dari borakkan kosong bak "menjual ayam sekor tapi tak  pernahnyaaaa laku"
Setiap pagi kalau dia tak ada dekat laman gmail aku, rasa macam tak lengkap

Kami berborak ikut mood.
Kadang-kadang kami ketawa
Kadang-kadang kami down
Kadang-kadang kami kutuk orang
Kadang-kadang kami gossip pasal artis
Kadang-kadang kami sentap cerita hal family
Kadang-kadang kami jadi mengong...cerita tanpa hala tuju dan diakhiri dengan GELAK.

* Kami banyak gelak dari berbual sebenarnya..cakap sikit gelak..cakap duasikit pun gelak-gelak..*

Sebenarnya hari-hari borak pun tak ada apa nak update.
Cakap yang ya yang tidak. Mengarut setiap masa.
Tapi aku suka sebab rasa berteman sentiasa.
Tapi kalau aku tak online dalam gmail, dia masuk opis pun rasa cam bosan sebab takde bahan. Kan? :P

Berkawan tak perlu berjumpa, bertunggu tangga, berpeluk bercinta setiap hari
Ingatan dan rutin itu yang menyebabkan nama pertama dicari dalam list gtalk adalah dia.
Dia ni kawan paling ego aku pernah jumpa.
Rindu aku, takpi tak mau mengaku.
Sanggup cakap "takkkkkk" panjang-panjang.

Walaupun dah berbulan tak bersua muka dan ketawa depan-depan bersama-sama
Tapi hari-hari kami bertemu.
Terima kasih teknologi.

Ye Fatin, aku tau kau rindu aku! ^_^
Kenang daku dalam doamu. 
Muehehheheheh

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

35 years of everything

Two days ago marked the 35 years of marriage between Sharimah and Mohd Anif.
Two strangers who came from different background, different country, different level of thinking, different perception and different in any kinds of way.

18 February 1978.
I wonder how did this 24 years old guy thinks when he married the 16 years old girl.
I amazed with their decision to live together through thick and thin, to build a family, to live together under one roof, to appreciate and accept each other ..when they were only known each other 6 months before they said 'I do'
Within that particular period, they decided to risked their life and promised to themselves that 'This is It!' and 'This is the one'
Totally amazed.

Climbing to age of 28 years old this year...up to today, I don't think I'm ready to take up the responsibility and deal with the future tests in the name of marriage. 
Especially when I had to see my sister's painful divorce and my brother half-way marriage ended. Not including my other friends and surrounding 'unhappily married' or 'pretend to be happy in the marriage for the sake of kids' or ending their 'I do' in the court.
Yes, I am sceptical and don't blame me for this kind of perspective since I've seen a lot.
Marriage is a real huge deal for me.

That is why I wonder how my parents keep up with their married life. They went through all the fun, nonsense, sad, happy, easy and rough moment up to today.

To be together for 35 years is REALLY not easy. To deal with the partner's flaws, to swallow their weakness, to accept the egos, to arrange the family, to strategies the finance, to mold the kids attitude, to sleep on the same bed for 35 years...I don't know how they've done it!

Mummy once said.. 
'It took a lot of hardwork, patience, love, courage, respect and trust in order to be this far.. and the most essential element is the communications'

I do agree with her but still it doesn't change my negative thoughts. LoL!

I am so proud to have a parents who still fight for their marriage after soooo many years. (Since it wasn't easy to hold any marriage that long these days..)
I am truly a proud daughter of them..
Despite anything, they have developed great children who +- has succeeded in life.

Happy 35th Anniversary, Mummy and Abah!
Its such a pride to see you together up till today...and Insyallah for more years to come !
Thank you for everything uve done for us all these while. Nothing can we do to repay all the good things that you both did for us..
May Allah bless both of you, our parents!
We love you so much!

*Kaklong, Ngah, Alia, Ashikin*

P/s: That above photo are taken in 1978..few months after they both got married, 35 years ago! 
  
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Saturday, February 16, 2013

Saturday (very early)morning

After more than 10 hours of sleep..(It was a payback rest and quality sleep)
5.00 am- The growling stomach force me to drive myself to the nearest McDonald's.
Its still dark outside...the best thing to start my weekend is having the big breakfast alone.

Sanity. That is how I feel now.
Peaceful surroundings without anyone is the therapy of life.
No attention needed or given.
No one is bulging me around and I believe, being selfish at times is a must.

I might continue sleeping once I reach home since I already missed my bed so very much.
It will be a fine weekend. :)
Monday, delay your appearance since I don't think many people loves you as they love Saturday.

I love you, weekend!
•Lea@Alia•Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.

Friday, February 15, 2013

Yesteryears

As I went tru my facebook newsfeed this morning, I saw few faces that makes me wonder..
Those girls used to be so "hot" , confidence, stylish and looked so glamorous during school days but now, they are just a normal ladies who trying too hard to share their life via facebook status!

I laughed alone. Especially when today, when the weather is quite gloomy and the office is pretty empty.. (some of the colleagues extended their CNY holiday breaks to the weekend)...my laughs sounds a bit loud than ordinary.

How can this happened? 
This made me think...
I was ugly during my schooldays. Believe me..you wouldn't want to see me 11 years ago.Seriously...
I wasn't really a bright student- a moderate one, has a very bad skin condition,  low self esteem and quite rough in doing things. (Still have the roughness after so many years...I think its just me born this way. lol)
I was not attractive as a lady...and I was only famous during my school days due to violation of rules or my co-curriculum activities or sports involvement.
Do you know those group of girls who was being famous since they have pretty face and being pretty?
Yes..I wasnt belong to that group. LOL.

However, today's newsfeed make me realised that 11 years after leaving the hi-school, things has changed a lot.
I wasn't really aware until saw one of the status belong to one of the famous pretty chick back in the schooldays is been telling everyone in her friend-list that she is actually having a heartbroken moment and living a hard life... OMG.. Too Much Information..I guess?

Becoming 28 this year...I was shocked to see the level of maturity showed by her.
Surprisingly, as I read her profile and her facebook activities on her wall, I was lost in translation.
The way that she portrayed herself as the victim from the unsettled love affair actually made her look like a teenage girl who doesn't know how to keep some secret to herself.  Attention seeker- to be precised.

Ah..maybe I was over-analysed. Ya ..ya ...ya..heartbroken people cant think straight! I understand. I was like that before...but, I remember the phase of over-sharing my heart broken feelings when I was younger....at least 3-4 years younger than now..
But.....at this age..-and she who used to be the centre of attraction...-and sharing her dissatisfaction on her love life.....its just like something that I don't think I can digest!
Thank God that I was immature at the proper age! LOL.

Something that I learn today is when I think again about myself 11 to 15 years ago, I used to be one particular person who always had the very low self esteem during my school days. I had becoming someone who doesn't really give shit to what people would say or think and realized that the reason I live in this world is not to be popular, glamour, adored or make people everyone happy.
The self esteem has increased and looking back to the worst old days, comparing me and the other girlish girls...I am thankful that I was ugly back then. LOL!
I had changed to become better and matured according my age level and lifestyle that I choose to live in.

Being popular and famous during schooldays will not make you grow as a successful person. Its just a phase of life that you could cherish the memories. I am sure that all the mistakes I've done throughout my yesteryear are taken as the life lesson in becoming better person everyday...

Yesterday was a Valentine's day. Since I stop celebrating it few years back..I think the above mindful thought is the greatest gift for myself in conjunction of the V day this year!

Maturity and experiences cant be bought! Live in style, have less expectation and give more attention to yourself rather than trying very hard to get attention and love from everyone. 
No one is actually love your drama! lol
Cherish the memories and I am thanking God for the opportunities! :)

Friday, February 8, 2013

Recent look

Remember this rambling write up?
After almost two years....again I am talking about the same subject. heh?

For the 1st time I think I am falling in love with my decent look.Vain much?  Really....and I am so proud of myself for be able to look damn great in a passport photo for the last 27++ years in my life. 

I am proud to present my current look which will be placed in my passport for the next 4 and a half years...


Regardless whatever people gonna say..but I believe that this is the best passport sized photo I ever had. I think I look damn innocent especially with the "bambam pipi"
Bravo! lol!

Its the Friday...Two write ups back to back are the indication that I am not so busy in the office today and looking forward to the long leave till next Thursday! 
Leaving the city to the south and back to the city again before the short holiday to the highland in the north. 
Happy Chinese New Year for those who are celebrating it...and lets enjoy the festive season!

Meet my boyfriends

Bangkok was the place where I celebrated the beginning month of February 2013.
Company trip to Bangkok, Thailand has created my version of perspective on the people, the culture, the language and the country itself.

What did I do there?
Shop. eat. pedicure.manicure. walk. walk. walk. eat. shop. shop.eat. walk etc etc etc.
By the way, I'm not gonna talk about BKK much as I don't think I have to. (Its just me being malas)


Anyway, dreams come true. Yes. If you decide to make it happen!
I've been keeping this dream for 20 years.
Since I was 8, I always wanted to visit this place where I could meet a lot of famous people and some of my idols.
And I've finally made it! (Even initially the 1st museum in London is my 1st choice..but Bangkok's has offered the similar scenarios also my company has sent us to Bangkok and NOT London..what else should I say eh? :P)


I've finally met my boyfriends here. LOL!
Cristiano Ronaldo and David Beckham. Ehem..
(Excuse me for the vulgar poses as I was too excited meeting them for the 1st time!)

I cant even remember how many photos did I took with more than 90 figures of great names on earth.
And I don't think its great to upload it here. Haha. 
The best thing is..I've made a new album full of my photos and actions with the wax figures on my facebook page after so long not being so active. Its just because of the dream that came true.

Well.. Madame Tussauds London and HongKong...we'll meet soon!??