Hari membayar UFTI

Pagi hari

Tersenyum lebar.

Duit gaji sudah masyuuukkk :P

Sekarang - 408pm

Muka ketat- Senyum pun hilang.

Haihhhh...

Da kering balik

Sambil berbual-bual dengan rakan sepejabat yang menjadi teman aku melangsaikan hutang piutang bulanan itu, kami telah mendapat satu kesimpulan yang mana

Kita kerja untuk bayar hutang.

Betul rasanya..sebab kalau da dapat gaji pagi, petang da settle..licin semua camne tuh?

Haihhhh* mengeluh lagi..

Habis satu segitiga emas aku ronda utk menyelesaikan segala bebanan bulanan.. Heh!

Hidup makin senang dengan Maybank2u.com..JIKA..duit dalam acc anda banyak! Heh!

(Sewa Uma,Api/air,Duit Kutu/Hutang piutang yang belum berbayar lagi dan sebagainya)

Telecomunication provider aku yang sudah ku langsaikan hutang bulanannya. Heh! Cuma servis kadang2 cam haremm! - Maybank2u

Oh- tak pasal2 kena ke RHB...membayar duit sewa parking ke acc Frankie! Aiyak!

Kereta Myvi putih belaanku yang bernama Jackie atau Mr Jay itu harus dibayar duit ansuran bulanannya

Even tgh tgu pengurangan bayarkan balik nye schedule, aku tetap bayar balik loan study aku. Heh!

Tanggungjawab kepada abah dan mak yang tercinta. Atos 1.3GL sudah pun settle utk bulan ini.. =D

Semua sudah dilangsaikan..walaupun cukup2..Tidur malam akan menjadi lena. Kan ???

Hehehe..

Pencarian

Pencarian kini bermula lagi.

Haiiihhh...

Aku ni memang takde rezeki agaknya....

Mana-mana pergi, ada je masalah.

*haiihhh*

Pencarian Kerja Kosong telahpun bermula. Yeayy!

Doakan aku yer!

*harap2 govt memanggil aku utk test2 or intvw2* phewww*

Sabtu separuh hari dipejabat

Mengantuk.

Malas.

Menyampah

Kenapa kena membazir waktu kerja di hari Sabtu?

Walaupun separuh hari dan alternate Saturday... bagi aku tetap membazir.

Tak ke membazir kos elektrik, air, internet dan macam2 lagi?

Malah,memenatkan badan je.

*Yawn*

Pandang kiri, pandang kanan..

Semua dok layan internet, game, dan lain-lain

Termasuk aku yang masih lagi gila mendengarkan lagu-lagu MJ 

Ok..termasuk mem-Facebook-ing -yang makin lama makin bosan pulak aku rasa...(sebab takde benda best..takde gambar baru..kawan2 tak berapa aktif dan sebagainya)

Sabtu( waktu sekarang -10.40 am)

Alangkah baik kalau dapat tido sekarang ni..

*Haiiiihhh*

Weekend ni akan penuh aktiviti

Sabtu- (hari ini dan lepas waktu pejabat yang sangat Heh! ini)

Times Square - FARYN nye tempat  kegemaran..hehe(layan Ollie's kids) - Nak main roller coster.. 

Lunch Date dengan manusia2 kecik,Ollie dan cik MariaMaria

Dinner dan movie bersama mereka-mereka itu sekali.

Ahad- (Esok yang menjadi hari cuti yang tunggal utk minggu ini)

Siang-takde plan..

Mungkin malam nak jumpa kawan dari Johor..Officer Bank yang approved kan loan kereta aku dulu (dan kini menjadi kawan aku) turun KL ada seminar..Mungkin dinner bersama dia sebab lama tak jumpa!

The best thing is- esok...mak abah tak jadi datang ke umah kaklong..yippie! jadi tak perlulah hantar mereka ke tempat amik bas yang paling aku benci didunia = PUDURAYA.. hehe

Oh...da apply kerja Gomen..

Berharap agar dapat dipanggil temuduga ataupun ujian..hehe.

*Doa banyak2 sekarang ini *

The King of Pop and one of the Charlie's Angel

*Sighh*

I was smoking in her car this morning when I heard about the news.  Not really sure about it..but the confirmation has been made again from the radio

He is gone.

She also gone.

Passed away..

Died.

                                           

I love his music. The king of pop has left us with one last concert in London which is still in the schedule. 

I am not the "die hard fan". But somehow, Micheal Jackson reminds me of someone who always been his NO1 fan.

One of my Ex-boyfriend is his real fan. Following his career since he was born. Being a great collectors of all his records, videos, original cds and dvds..and even the posters of him. (Mr.Ex's favourite- the Pepsi's poster!)

I used to spend my time with Mr.Ex watching MJ's 20th anniversary concert. (More than 5 times I guess)

I bet the Mr.Ex  must be devastated of MJ's sudden death.

Because of this news..the memories is coming back to my mind. Heh! 

I don't know what happened to Mr.Ex now, but I am hoping that he'll be fine.

To MJ- Hope you are really a Muslim before u died ..and hope u will be buried as Mikail..not Micheal kafir Jackson! Heh! 

R.I.P The King of Pop.

We've lost another Icon in the music world

                                             

One of the original Charlie's Angel.. Miss Farrah Fawcett..

I don't really know much about her.. What I know is, she have this gorgeous hair style back in the 70's. Heh! 

She also one of the Angels that melt people's heart. 

I think she is HOT. Look at the picture above. Heh! (I love Blondes..okay?)

Cause of Death- Anal Cancer.

Another celebrity is gone.

R.I.P Farrah Fawcett.

Best friend.

I never had anyone like I'm having her now as her best friend.

She is the only best friend that I have

We talked

We laughed

We smile

We do stupid things

We done crazy things

We cried

We advised each other..

We helped one another..

I do love her as the only best friend that I have...

But sometimes..

We just need a moment to be alone.. (especially when you are facing the hard times which u can't even explain to anyone)

And I do felt guilty when she think that we are not as close as before

And I don't fancy that.

But deep inside..

I still love her..

and I appreciate the friendship that we have...

She is the greatest best friend I ever had..

Hope she'll keep it in her heart and she knows that I do care and I keep her in my heart and my mind most of the time

I love you I.S.S

Menanti hari berdarah

Masih lagi menanti

hadirnya hari-hari berdarahku..

Pelik sungguh..

Haus bagai nak gile..

Lapar macam nak rak..

Ianya tak kunjung tiba juga..

Kawalan "angin tak baik" masih lagi berada dalam keadaan stabil.

Rasa nak pergi berurut pulak...

Sekarang ni, mengantuk sangat-sangat

Sejak balik dari JB kelmarin..

tidur tak cukup2.

Letih memanjang..

Oh..malam semalam pergi makan makanan barat yang tak berapa sedap dekat Bangsar.

Nasib baik ada HOT CHOCOLATE di Coffee Bean menjadi penyelamat keadaan.

*Hot chocolate..sedap sekalllliii*

Terserempak pulak dengan Encik Mahazir yang hot dimata aku masa kerja kat RC dulu.

He still hot like before!

Cuma rasanya ...manusia yang menemani aku makan malam itu lagi menggiurkan.

Hehehe..

Johor Bahru

JB -Here I come! =D

Im counting down the time.

Will be out of town starting tomorrow until Monday

Driving alone (im loving it!)

Weekend with the family..

I am missing Todt so much!

Rindu JB in the 1st place..

But leaving some of the good people and the dumbass here.

Heh!

Wanita dan Waktu Uzurnya

Seringkali jika seseorang wanita itu "naik hantu" atau naik minyak..atau berhangin tak tentu pasal..orang-orang disekelilingnya mesti mengeluarkan pernyataan seperti berikut

"Ala..member tengah period la tu"

atau pun..

"Ni mesti tengah berdarah"

Hakikatnya, memang betul pun.

Aku percaya selepas membaca artikel ini

Mood tak stable, perilaku makan yang sangat ekstrem, sakit di bahagian perut..Kulit berminyak bagai boleh menggoreng telur diatas permukaan epidermis. Haihhh*

Dan sekarang, aku sedang mengalami gangguan-gangguan seperti yang disebutkan diatas.(walaupun waktu2 merah menjelma hampir tiba)

Kadang kala terfikir juga...

Susahnya jadi wanita..

Perempuan ini adalah susah untuk dimengertikan..(adakalanya bukan masa haid pun jadi macam ni) 

Mood Swing!

Aku sedang elok berfikir, bagaimana lelaki-lelaki yang telah  berkahwin di luar sana mampu melayan kerenah wanita yang bergelar isteri kepada mereka.

Amazing!

Rasa nak jauhkan diri dengan semua benda..semua orang..jadi aku takla dibenci..dikutuk..diumpat oleh manusia2 lain atas OUTRAGEOUS nya  attitude aku dan dalam masa yang sama aku mengalami perut sakit perut...pinggang macam nak patah dan Hati kecil jadi cam hati semut! Cehh!!

Aku benci diri sendiri masa time piyed! Heh!!!!!

Annoyed

If nothing happen between them,

why those numbers need to be dialed like everyday?

Im wondering...

and 

I want the confrontation to be made.

I just need one thing...

PLEASE DO NOT HIDE 

and

PLEASE TELL ME THE TRUTH

thats all.

*sighhh*

Common.Tiada yang istimewa

2nd interview..

Dekat Cyberjaya...

Nampak gayanya macam dapat.

Cuma apa yang aku perlu considerkan adalah soal wang atau Duit.

At least nak kena lebih RM400 dari gaji yang aku dapat sekarang.

Kalau dapat..definitely aku chow.

Oh..Jumaat- semalam, balik lambat.. 

temankan Ollie kat Maya bertemu kawan2 yang sedang berusaha untuk mendapatkan duit banyak!

Heh!

Sampai rumah da pukul 12.

Nampak la hsemate2 aku yang terbongkang tengok tv dengan muka boring..

Lepas mandi, lepak kejap depan tv..

Tengok cite 100 hari kat Astro yang aku tak paham plotnya.

But the best thing is..

DIRA ABU ZAHAR berlakon.

Sejak aku tengok dia dalam RONA RONI MAKARONI ..

rasa cam jatuh cinta.

She is not pretty..but there is something about her that I like to see..

Suara juga sangat sedap.

Kata-kata aku dipersetujui oleh Lee yang tersengih2 memandang kaca tv.

Cehh!! Seorang lagi sibuk main PSP...

Pukul 1 pagi- aku da tido.

Sabtu (hari ni) kerja..

Adui..letihnya..

Balik kerja..ada appointment nak buat threading dan mungkin nak cuci kereta.

Oh ya..

kat opis..aku ngn Arol bercamwhoring.. Hehehe..

I don't hook up

When someone keep on telling you indirectly that they want a commitment from you- at  inconvenience time, 

What would you say?

*Haihhh..*

I am currently stuck in this situation

She is lovely..seriously

Even shes not my type (I mean the skin color..the face..but the bod..is just simply irresistible.Heh!)

But she is a nice girl to be with.

She is hot! Sexy?Of course...otherwise I wouldnt ask her to come in! Heh!

She can compromise, adapt to the situation (especially with my condition at the moment)

She also independent and the most important aspect is..

SHE IS NOT ANOTHER DRAMA QUEEN!

Heh!

I am totally comfortable when she is around.

I don't feel weird when she is around.

I do like her.

Like really like her.. especially that part.

But somehow,

When she started to bring the "commitment" subject..

I was like..

freaked out..I guess!

*Haiiihhh*

Currently.

Im not looking for another relationship.

Im just not ready.

Its not like shes not good enough for me.

But..its just me being selfish and afraid of losing another "her" drown in the drain.

No..I don't want to feel down because of "her"

That is it.

Its not her..Its me..

Until now..

She still bring up the subject.

I just don't want to hurt her feelings..

She is great.seriously...

My answer normally like this..

"Just go with the flow.."

*Haiiihhh*

~Now, I do understand why some people (guys) used to run away from me when I was kinda rushed him to go to the next level. hehe...=P

*

Take one step at a time 

There's no need to rush 

It's like learning to fly 

Or falling in love 

It's gonna happen and it's 

Supposed to happen that we 

Find the reasons why  

On step at a time         *

Tiada update.

Terlalu banyak untuk diperkatakan.

Interview.

Bilik

Baju-baju yang berlambak yang perlu dihantar dobi

Kawan-kawan

Kisah silam

DUIT!

Kerja,

Flirting.

Family

Todt

Kereta

Adik beradik

Housemates

Close friends

Best friend

Bekas kekasih

Haiihhh....

Terlampau banyak untuk diceritakan.

Oh..rehat tak cukup,.

Sejak aku pindah uma baru ni..apa pun tak dapat buat.

Badan lemah lesu.

Balik kerja..makan...tengok tv sampai lewat.baru tido.

Kadang2 melepak dengan kawan sampai kul dua tiga pagi didalam rumah.

Aku malas nak keluar

Duit takde..tu salah satu alasan. Memang pun!

Mood memang takde.

Kat office pun tak produktif langsung. Ceh!

Asyik rasa cam nak membuta je!

Banyak sangat yang nak diperkatakan

Sampai tak tahu mana nak cerita..

Letih...

Semalam..balik dari office dengan Ollie,

pergi makan kat Raja Sup Taman Tun..

pastu hantar dia ke Eastin Hotel, kata dia ada meeting..

aku memang tak larat semalam..

Sampai2 kat rumah. seorang manusia pun takde..

Kucing betian dua ekor tu la yang jaga rumah..

Seekor tu HORNY memanjang.asyik nak melepek merengek2 depan bilik aku..

Takde apa yang dibuat..sekadar mandi..tengok Ugly Betty at 8tv

dan pesan housemate yang g minum dengan Ex dia tu belikan Coke.

Lapar pulak...makan biskut kacang, tgk dvd dan hisap rokok.

Makan twisties dan tido dengan nyenyaknya.

oh...aku rindukan TODT- anak buahku yang "akan dirindui bila tak jumpa..tapi annoyed bila bersamanya lama2" heh!

Cik Lea sayang Todt!

*Gerammmnyaaaaa!!*

Drama Queen

I always avoid this kind of people;

DRAMA QUEEN

They are simply ridiculous.

They do not know what they want.

They always blame other people and the situation for any mistakes that happened to them

Crazy B*tch!

Confused!

Irritating!

Annoying!

Stupid!

I saw one scene of drama queen act in my own place last night.

She was totally out of her mind.

They already broke up about a month ago

But she still wanted to be the control freak towards her ex.

Pity the ex.

Haihh...Life is so dramatic until you can find a lot of drama queen around you.

I let go one big headed Drama Queen from disturbing my mind and my life last month

It was a relief! 

Hah!

But now..when I just started with opening a new book of my life

All of the sudden,

There is ANOTHER drama queen near me. (Its like a replacement to the old one ;p)

Haihhhhh...

I need peace, guys!

I do not want to listen to all the stupid arguments, door bangings, screams and whatsoever shit when I'm watching tv..especially during my  favorite stuff be on air - The Nanny 

Please ..

Show me some respect.

I would like to say something to the Ultimate Drama Queen who messed up my mood to watch my favorite sitcom...

Dear Drama Queen,

Please stop all the nonsense. 

I do not want to hear or see stuffs flying around the house.

Please stop behaving like you are still with ur EX-other half.. (an EX..ok? she is no longer yours!)

Please do not show that you are some kind of SUPERWOMAN who can slam the doors..

shouted like crazy person...

or yelling and fighting in front of other person..

especially your friend who got nothing to do with your past relationship.

Please remember that other person need their own space too 

and its not about you all the time!

Haihh...

Haihhhh.

Haihhhhh...

At last, I left the living room and start doing my things...

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"camwhoring"

heh! =D

New Job.

Otak tak berkembang.

Serious.

5 bulan aku kat sini..

Rasa cam bersalah every each day.

Rasa not worth it.

Tak boleh nak buat apa.

Sponsor tak masuk2..

Semua yang di approach tak nak sponsor..

Ekonomi teruk...nampak aku yang cam tak buat kerja..

Isnin- ada dua interview.

Yeay!

Insyallah..dapat kerja..aku chow.

Heh!

What will happen next?

Its been two days since I left his place

Until now, he did not even mention anything about it.

We talk normally and we laugh easily 

Without any of the related issue occurred in our conversation

I wonder

What will happen next?

Haihhh....

Truthfully,

I am happy to live by myself in my small RM300 room

Happy and freely

Even, most of the time I'll be at home watching tv together with my housemate's two crazy cats

I am happy 

and 

I am numb

and I still trying to tell myself that 

"This is your house..Your only place to live in KL..There are no more place for you to sleep except here"

Because I keep thinking that I do have another place which is obviously his place

Moving out is not easy.

Seriously..

I am trying to make myself happy as so-called "single and unmarried lady"

Sleeping alone is the hardest part.

I couldn't sleep well in my single bed.

Sighhhh...

See? I am so used to sleep and to him and I am so used to hear his snore every each night for the past +- 4 years. (It's like a lullaby to me.heh!)

The smell of the bed..I miss all that...

Haihhh..

But, I made my choice.

Hope it'll be the best decision I ever made in my entire life-story.

Hope that Allah will show me the correct path..

Insyallah...

Sendiri

Almari kosong.

Hati aku? 

Sayu.

Dia?

Diam.

Muka sebal.

Aku pun muka sebal.

Tunggu Lee datang

5 beg plastik hitam- baju bersih.dengan hanger2 sekali aku letak

Laptop.

Plastik baju kotor

Barang2 lain.

Haihhh..

Lee datang

Angkat barang.

Dia tolong.

Senyap.

Tak cakap apa.

Aku dah pindah.

Pindah dalam erti kata sebenar.

Betul2 pindah. Serious!

3 tahun 10 bulan lamanya hidup bersama.

Macam tak percaya yang akhirnya aku yang sendiri nak pindah?!

Haihhh...

Sedih? Tengok almari baju aku kosong..sayu dan sikit sedih.

Lain-lain ?takde rasa

Termenung.

Bilik kecik itu pilihan aku.

Kemas barang

Bertafakur

Amik mood

Hisap rokok...hela nafas.

Berfikir..

Haihhhhh....

Hidup baru

Tidur sendiri.

Hidup sendiri.

Harap2 ada sinar dihujung nanti

Bukan aku menarik diri jauh sekali membawa hati..

Cuma nak mengajar diri

Bahawa tiada siapa yang akan mengubah nasib ini

Kalau bukan AKU SENDIRI!

Heh!

Harap2 hidup diberkati.

Oh ya...

Tanda 1- Dah dapat parking utk aku sewa

Alhamdulillah. 

Yang ajaibnya, takde deposit! seriously????

Alhamdulillah SEPULUH KALI!

Tuhan, bantu la diriku ini.

Feelingless and Statusless

Selepas hujung minggu yang sangat packed.

Diganggu pula mimpi2 yang tak berapa enak dalam tidur..

Mimpi si bekas perempuan lah, mimpi bapak pengantin yang nikah last week meninggal lah, mimpi mak Ollie meninggal lah..haihhhss... macam2 hal..

Barang da dipacked. Sikit2.

Baju yangbergantung oleh hanger2 masih lagi didalam almari.

Macam mana nak bawak naik kereta. Terlalu byk.

Semalam, plannya nak pindah.

Lee da call..

Aku cakap..hujan! Memang pun! Even rintik2..still hujan kan?

Mood penat dan malas berlilit2 dalam diri.

Malam ni mesti nak kena angkut barang!

Regardless anything that might happen.

Hujan ke ribut ke..aku kena kotakan apa aku kata.

Insyallah!

Yeay!! Kembali hidup bujang!

Hari ni rasa kosong.

Facebook pun aku takde rasa nak tukar2 status.

Seriously feelingless and statusless.

Heh sekali.

Oh...rindu Todt banyak2!

Haihhhhhhhhhhh