Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Newly discovered.

From the outside- I might look mean, aggressive and garang.
Apparently, most of the negative attitudes has been associated with me for so many years.. I didn't really bother about it that much.

So, I always think that I am mean, aggressive and precisely garang.
But, recently I realised something that I have not discover about myself for so many years.
In fact, I didn't even know that I have this particular quality in myself.

I am being too nice with my surroundings. Yes! I am.

After almost 28 years living in Allah's land..I finally understand.
The attitude that I've shown to people actually its just a visor of myself.

I am particularly the most soft-hearted woman, the most caring, who easily forgive, who always said 'Its okay..or takpelah' when people stepped on me and used me whenever they want.

Just because I always prioritise other people's happiness..which I believed their smiles are matter the most and I can always be happy to see people around me to be happy even I had to makan hati or be suffered at that time.

Surprisingly, I just got to know that I always being bullied by my surroundings. Just because I want the people around me to be happy. I seldom say 'No' when people asking for help. I will always determined to fulfil the needs of people that I love in this world- with the hope that they will love me and appreciate me more. After all, life is so short..so, make as much as good deeds as you could-That is always be my motto of life.

Anyway...today, I guess I should change that perception.
I have to think more about myself.
I have to make myself happy 1st then only make other people smile.
I have to stop sacrifices for something that I shouldn't.
I have to learn how to say NO!
I have to put away some of the sympathy towards people who always asked for help.
I have to love myself more than I love anyone else in this world.

Saying something is so easy.
To execute - as a matter of fact..is really hard to do.

I am trying not to be TOO NICE now.
I always say that I am a selfish bitch who normally don't give a shit.
But somehow.. I am the most nicest person whom I ever known and I'm done being nice for people who didn't recognise the existence of me being here.

I'll try to be mean when I needed to be.
I'll try not to think about what my people will say..
I don't like to change..but I guess the changes are the reflection of what they were doing for so many years..

Do you love yourself? Yes? Really?
You better think again as I just realised that I don't love myself enough all these while.

Btw, being too nice to people doesn't really bring any good. Be mean sometimes..so you'll realised how great is the feeling of a real happiness and self satisfaction.

Afterall, people's satisfaction aren't mine anymore.. ;)
*But firstly... how to say..NO?* +_+


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Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Dreams do came true.


Ya. Dreams do came true.
As example, the headband that I was wearing in the picture which specifically in purple.
Been thinking of having it since 8-9 years old and finally after 20 years...I finally get it!

Sometimes, simple things in life are the one that makes your life more meaningful.
I am currently dealing with a lot of issue..I guess everybody are also in my circle.
Life is short...really.
Just do something that makes you happy and keep it simple as much as you can.
That is what I've been doing now.

Its June..and July is just around the corner.
Be grateful and dont stress yourself with nonsense issue that doesn't bring any good.
Its easy for me to say..but I also find it hard to execute. Haha.

After all, what matters the most is we are still be able to live and He is always there for us. :)

Next- I'm gonna find this thing call "polly pocket". :P