I am tired of being a monologue-er.
Really.
In fact I am tired of eating up all the nonsense from the people around me.
Double sigh.
Yet, I am being too nice and has not transformed to be "meaner" like I want to.
I just cant +_+
I've tried very hard to be mean but saying NO to my surroundings are definitely cant be done up till today.
The great feeling on earth is to see people that you love is happy.
But, by accomplishing that..I always get the heartache in return.
Yet, I cant make everybody that I love being really happy around me.
I just can't win it all.
I am very passionate and always have full determination when comes to accomplish my target.
Saying NO is not an option at all.
But, what do I received in the end.
Zero for me...Hundreds for anyone else.
Yes. yes. I am really tired indeed.
Unfortunately, I left with no choice at the moment.
I have to go through every single nonsense everyday.
Being really happy is actually something that I havent felt for a looong time in 2013.
I have to be selfish.
I need to find my happiness in whatever method that I might use.
I thought I am happy when people around me are happy.
But turns out.. I am totally wrong.
A changed in this matter are truly required a.s.a.p
Since happiness is a choice and I want to feel truly happy again.
One week after 1st Ramadan...oh, I served my cuti already. lol ^_^
