Who knows the future?

Yes. 2 years since the last posting published here

2019 marks the 10th year anniversary of this blog. Congratulations, eh? 😂

Well, we don't know what the future holds..we never know what will happen even in the next seconds, minutes or even hour.

Quite frightening, kan? But somehow I learn how to let it go.

Newsflash! Not so much of newsflash, I think as I have opening up to more than hundreds of people via social media about it.

Here I am in Perth. First working trip of being single and back in the dating pool after so long. LOL.

Not a very proud of it. Never thought it's going to happen to me. Never know what was written by Allah to me until it arrived.

How do I feel? It such a mix feelings. Obviously sad..too sad too tell anyone and I managed to shield it with my outrageous laugh and smile.

This is an emotional rollercoaster which I did not signed up for. But was asked to ride on it. Never think of being divorced. Never think that someone I was crazily about since 7 years ago had let me go. Never planned anything to be back as a single woman with the best baggage in my life.

Do you think I want all these to happened? Do you think I am happy?
Do you think that I find it funny even I am laughing at even the simplest jokes?
Never.

But one thing I realised that..I feel relief.

What happened behind the curtains of our marriage, need not to be told here. Not important. Really.

But I am picking up pieces of my heart which are now scattered around places that I never know it exist.

We went thru this far (not that far..but still far jugak lah 😊)
The path is no longer the same for both of us...
Blamed it on anyone of us doesn't bring any good for our kid (s)
I have Zafeer to take care of. He has Zafeer as well. We need to cooperate for Zafeer. Friends with kids kinda thing? Have you heard that before? Haha

We came to the conclusion that there's nothing else that can be done.
Words uttered can't be taken back.
The lost of heart and feeling can't be back to its old home.

We accept the fate.
As cliche as it is..Tak ada jodoh..but somehow it's true. Jodoh cukup sampai di situ 😊

I am done crying. Yes, I did cry like a lot.
It's coming to the 2nd month..and one month left before my iddah ends.

What do I feel now? Numb.
Living day by day and starting back from 0.

There's always hikmah behind this.
I believe it will come because I trust Allah's plan for me..even I do not know anything about it.

The best is yet to come. Insyallah.

Sleep tight, all. ❤️