Early excitement.

Pangkor on late November/ early December was my last real vacation.
Put aside the KK and Penang trips recently.
Those can't be considered as vacation.
Working doesn't mean resting.
But, still I am thankful and proud for the travel opportunity from office every once a month. :)
The job that pays you to be out of town sometimes. Don't you think its great?
As a person like me..I think that is a rezeki!

Btw,I'm planning for another vacation as early as the 2013 starts.
When everybody is coming back from their year end holiday...or when everyone is busy with their work plans in 2013 or even some parents are busy sending their kids to 'first- day- of- school thingy'..
That will be the time for me to run away from the country.

Not too far from my hometown (and yet..that country is Mummy's kampung..afterall I was there last Raya..)but I believe it will be a great start for 2013.
I hate life planning but as an event personnel..I always believe in a good vacation plan. :) even if its so-called a 'backpacking' holiday.

I've done my research as I'll be the guidance for someone who's never been in Temasek in her life. :p
It'll be so much fun!

As my 5 days of leave approved by my great HOD today.. My mind is already in my vacation-planning-kit most of the time.

This is a great kick start for January 2013 as I already have Kuching and Bangkok written in my diary for that particular month also. :p

Work and company trip will be another excitement waiting for the 1st quarter.

Its 211212. Allah is blessing us..I believe! :)

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Down Memory Lane

As I went tru all my boxes during the spring cleaning session this week, I realised there is a treasure that I've been keeping for more than 10 years in my life.

-My collection of real-life diaries.
I opened the box and read every each of the diary..
I think I had few goose bumps during the reading session. Wondering how immature I was during my younger days. LoL!

I've read all the sentences and the words written by myself since I was 12 years old and realised too many things I've done in my life.. Good, bad, happy and sad. -_-''

I used to be very emotional as a teenager and still an emotional lady now. :p
The experiences, the feelings and the mistakes I've done has brought me back to the memory..
I smiled and even cried while reading it..
I was also trying to figure some names and the issues that related to certain stories. Too many names..too many stories!

That's was my real life story.
I believe no one ever lie to their diary. Writing a diary is still the best therapy besides talking.. That is what I think.

Started in 97,98,99,2000,2001,2002,2003,2004,2005 and stopped at 2006..I gave up with the therapy..
And I blaming the social networking sited for this.. LOL.
Typing is much easier than holding a pen and write..isn't?

I think that I'll be starting to write again for myself..I will in 2013.
I would like to live in my own memory and read all my life story in few years time..I will try my best for this.

Diary is always be my best friend.
2013..I'll be engaged again with my diary..
There will be a real story who no one could ever know except me..
Insyallah.. :)


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Cantik itu subjektif?

Semenjak dua ni rasanya susah nak melihat cermin dengan perasaan yang kuat mengatakan diri sendiri "cantik"

Kenapa?

Melangkaui umur selepas 25 tahun, kebanyakkan wanita akan mempunyai masalah yang sama.

Bukan soal nak kahwin atau kekasih atau pasangan.

Tapi sebab KEGEMUKAN.

Kadar metabolisma badan bagaikan turun merundum bila dah lepas umur 25tahun.

Especially untuk orang-orang macam aku yang sememangnya mengamalkan gaya hidup kurang sihat.

Lets put aside on my lifestyle. LOL.

Hari ni, aku dah lost count berapa hari tak makan nasi dan geng-geng seangkatannya.

Mungkin sudah lebih dari 200 hari.

Ya. Achievement yang sangat dibangga-banggakan untuk diri sendiri.

Bayangkan hidup tanpa makanan ruji?

Bayangkan bila balik kampung, mak masak lauk sedap-sedap tapi aku hanya makan lauk dengan roti?

Bayangkan masa hari raya hari tu aku langsung tak rasa ketupat atau lontong?

Bayangkan betapa rindunya nak makan nasi, kicap dengan ayam goreng?

Bayangkan.....

Haih.. Kadang-kadang memang rasa rindu sangat. Rindu yang sampai boleh nak nangis. lol.

Katalah apa korang nak kata..

Nasi tak menggemukkan ke..aku bodoh sebab tak makan nasi ke..cakaplah apa pun..

Sikit pun aku tak heran.

Sebabnya, dalam dunia ni hanya kita yang faham kehendak dan keupayaan diri sendiri.

Bukan kau..bukan dia..bukan orang lain.

Penangan tak makan nasi membuatkan aku dengan senangnya control berat badan sendiri.

5-7kilogram dalam masa 200 hari itu juga boleh dipandang sebagai kejayaan.

Ok. sekarang, sila cakap aku "berlagak" dan "macam bagus"

Memanglah bagus sebab bukan senang untuk berat turun sampai 5 kilogram.

Hanya tanpa makan nasi, minum air banyak bergelen-gelen dan kerja yang banyak berjalan.

Kerana kegemukan adalah antara musuh utama aku.

Dan jugak isu terbaik untuk Mummy ketawakan aku ..Hanya sebab badan da gemuk, perut da buncit, muka dah lebar dan punggung dah membesar.

Mummy selalu kata..cantik memang subjektif.

Tapi kita yang menilai diri sendiri dimana kecantikan kita dihadapan cermin dan kita yang tahu mana kelebihan kita yang perlu dijadikan aset dalam hidup.

Sampai sekarang aku masih tak makan nasi walaupun terliur tengok gambar-gambar dalam internet dan gambar lauk mak yang sering Keen upload kan dalam internet.

*Stress*

Hidup ni tak semua benda kita dapat.

Kalau ada dua benda..1 mungkin kita terlepas.

Jadi..pilihan ditangan sendiri..cubalah, tengok dan rasa..

Kalau selesa...proceed.

Kalau tak suka..tak tahan...gemuklah aku jadinya.

Jadi, sampai hari ni masih bertahan.....hidup tanpa nasi dan dengan rasa hebatnya bila pakai baju mandi yang macam dalam cerita  orang putih dekat tv.

Serius puas hati. Tak apa lah..tak makan nasi pun tak mati. :P

Tapi....sedap kan nasi? T__T

Its hard being women

Yes.

It is hard being a woman.

Especially when you are a daughter, a wife, a mother and employee at the same time.

I was wondering how these people juggling their days for a year when too many parties required a lot of attention from them.

Still, I couldn't digest the fact that facing everyday lives with too many expectations from different people and situation.

Regardless what is their position in the office and how many kids they had.. I always amazed by the way they do it.

How?

Myself always feel that "I need more time"

I am not married..and of course I am childless and for sure that I am a selfish-bitch. :P

I only have my family which consists of parents and siblings and also the no 1 priority which is my work.

Yet..I sometimes lost in the transition. I just...lost!

Every working mother-wife in this world are SUPERWOMAN

How did they control their emotions when having their PMS? or when the kids are sick..or the husband are playing this-nonsense-marriage games? or even when they having tough time at work?

I don't think I can manage all that at one time even I always believe that I am a multitask-er. Ya rite.. =.=

 "I dont know how she does it", 2011 is the movie acted by Sarah Jessica Parker which actually tell me the story of how this kind of woman deal with their everyday lives.

Salute! since I dont think I can be in their shoes (at this very moment)

And yet...another thing that always came into my mind...

Does the husband actually realised that the woman that hes married to is the Superwoman?

I do not know what these guys think.

Well..its December and I am getting better.

Living as usual despites all the circumstances and challenges.

Ehem.. singles are also facing some problems but definitely different than the superwomen's problem.

For us - singles, monthly period cramps are also one of the problems ok?

Laugh is you want to..but then respect some people's opinion.

Just because we are in different situation now, doesn't mean that we should be enemy :)

And another thing... I always have this in mind...

Why these Superwomen think that we the singles are some sort of threat to their lives and some of them also said that "Singles have not life?"

Btw, just so you know... Not being married doesnt mean these people doesn't have life and it is not definite by being married ..your life is perfect.

Respect people's choice of life. Let them be whatever they want it to be.

Regardless even if they decided to be single..married ...fuck buddies..friends with benefits..swingers..gays or just a woman who loves to be alone with her cats till she died.

Being a judgmental person doesn't bring you anywhere :)

Yes, I am bit emotional today just because its my first day of period and everything seems very bad. I mean the cramps . It is A problem and I am making big fuss of it..just because I can! ;-)

December 2012. Few more weeks to 2013.

Do you have a plan for next year?

Me? No. I just dont. :P

Have a great December, people!:D