Thinking and Considering

For the past two weeks, I have been thinking A LOT.

Seriously.

Thinking and considering is the main agenda in my life besides the workload that I have.

Too many issue I had in my mind.

Oh..I left the house.. The small RM300 room that Ive been rented for the past 1 year plus.

Its all gone.

No more housemates..No more cats and no more loneliness

And practically I am living in someone else's house ..temporarily.

Also currently looking for a new place called home.

Worklife? Hah! This is interesting.

What I can say is... Office is my first home besides the house that Ive been living now.

Great isn't it?

My officemates are like my housemates.

We meet each other like 6.5 days a week...and sometimes 7 days..

I do love it sometimes...yup..coz practically my life is more towards work and I do not want to give a chance for myself to think about my personal life.

I am considering.

I wanted to be given a chance to live by my own.

To lead a normal life.

and now...I am still thinking and considering..on too many things..

Sad isn't?

But when you don't try...you may never know...

That is one thing for sure...

So, now...I'm hoping for the best...

and I'll pray for the rest.

Tolerate the stupidity.

I never said that I am good in doing my work...

and neither am I so stupid in settling my task..

I am still learning...Regardless whatever it takes, I have to go through it.

Because in my field of work, there is no right and wrong.

The principles and the skills plus the knowledge are the important facts to ensure the task is being done accordingly.

However, I just can't tolerate the stupidity.

If you don't know...ask.

That is what I've been doing since the first day I started work..(Not only here..even for the few previous companies before)

Please inform...tell..acknowledge the real situations before you gets anyone into trouble!

But, I am wondering..

Why..some people, with the so-called great experiences in this line of work..

Give me the stupidest excuses...

Adooyyy....

Or...Some people are just trying to impress me..I guess..

I am terribly felling so HEHHHHHHHHHH right now.

The 2nd week of Raya..

Raya its already over for me...

Yes...but my heart is still glowing.

Till now...

=)

Thank you for those who makes me smile everyday....

Yesterday

What a day..

But I was smiling when the sun goes down.

Life is like that..

For the past one week...I always think about it.

Where am I heading to...?

Whats next?

What this and whats that?

Or should I leave it just like that..and see whats coming?

Then only think how to overcome it?

Oh..I lost my appetite since hari raya...

I don't really eat..

I smoke too much..

I smile most of the time...even when something not so good hitting on me..

Patient...its all that I got now.

Last night, someone said that..I am not being myself at the moment.

The statement makes me asked him why and apparently asking myself- why?.

We were friends since I was 16...I think we were more than friends..

We laughed...we talked..we smiled..we even yelled at each other...

He knows a lot about me..even without me telling him this and that..

He just can figured it out..Thats the specialty..

Our friendship is like "on off " basis due to certain circumstances... Hehe

We don't see each other that much..even we are staying in the same city..

But we are still friends after so long..

And I really appreciate that..:)

Back to the story...when someone who knows you well said something like that..

How do you feel?

and

What do you think?

I am not being myself?

Hermmm...

When the question - "Why are you saying that?" popped out from my mouth to him...

He just smiled..

and it makes me think that..

He might be right...- because he knows me too well..

or

He might be absolutely wrong - because people do change and like I said to him..Its tuntutan lifestyle..

Hehehe...

I can imagine his face when I said that..

Heh!

Glad to see him again. Really ;)

;)

Happens for a reason

I am sighh-ing since 2pm in the office on 5th day of Syawal.

Everything was so glooming this morning until the obstacles arrived in the afternoon until this time.

I am wondering ...

I am asking...

Why?

One after another...

Not only office affaisr..even life affairs being challenged...

Ok.

I am sighhh-ing again..

Suprisingly I just can feel something will happen while I was smiling in the morning.

But I just denied the feelings..

After all, the instinct is just another form of reality...

Then, I am thinking that everything happens for a reason..

I always have that faith and keep it in my heart..

Today might be a difficult day in my life and other people that related to me...

But Insyallah...tomorrow, there will be a sunshine and make me fine..:)

Subhanallah...Masy'allah..

Ya Allah...please show me the right path and help me to go through all this...

Insyallah.....