After a month an a half

I wasn't in the office yesterday.
Long story- shouldn't be told here, I think.

But this morning, I look at it so passionately.
Haha.
Finally I received my business card after 45 days of my employment here.

Glad and it makes me smile.
I'm back in the 'Komunikasi Keparat' or as known as the Corporate Comm field yawww!

Its kind of achievement even I'm still a 'Kuliketif', yet I am still proud of myself.

Been given the opportunity to be back in the field and do something that you like is one of the greatest feeling on earth.

Happy Tuesday, world!

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The Hunter

I am hunting now.

Not hunting for a companion, sleeping partner or a deer.

I am hunting for a place called "where the heart is"

House hunting could be the very exciting activities.

Despite the tense and the financial limitations.

It actually teach you on how to be more patient towards certain issues in life.

Again- the difficulties could bring you smile by the end of the day.

I am so used to it. Everyday is a new page in different chapter of life.

I considered myself as lucky since the other house-mate willingly to search and find the so called perfect place for us to stay.

Teamwork- at least.

We are currently doing A LOT of research from internet - seeking "apartments to rent" section in newspapers, make some calls- here and there, also we already started to view few places already. Even- we have more than 30 days to leave this place.

God will always be with us at any time.

The challenge-

Nice,comfortable secured and affordable place to stay in Kuala Lumpur.

House hunting- it could be fun!

Lets see, where my next nest would be starting from July 2011.

Have faith- everything will be FINE!

=)

Lame or serious issue?

Aha..

I never know this could be a serious issue.

Until it came out on newspaper few days ago

I wonder, what government could do to prevent more spinster in the country?

Hahahaha...

In Malaysia- You could be called -"the late ones" when you are not married yet after age of 25.

I guess im part of "the late ones" la? Owh.

Why do women decided to be single and not being married towards certain age? Lets see..

No 1. - Normal excuse- "Belom sampai jodoh lagi..." or "Nobody wants me..." (Hopeless!)

No 2- Again normal excuse - I havent found the right guy (Because you decide to)

No 3- I am afraid to commit into a relationship since I had a pretty bad experience in my previous relationship/s (divorcee? used to be enggaged?psycho ex boyfriend? Heh!)

No 4- Career comes first! (Its all about the money)

No 5- I hate the 5 w + 1 H questions. What?When?Where?Who?Why? and How?(Sick sick sick!)

No 6- I just love being alone - Nonsense! - (Not all the time being alone is a nice feeling eh!)

No 7- Most of the guys that Ive met are "assholes" - (As always)

No 8- I just dont want to get married! (Preparing to die next to your pet esp cats)

No 9- I am a lesbian and I do not have apetite for any guy! (Finger licking good!)

Sigh..

Marriage is subjective.

I have no further comments on this since I haven't get to that stage -being a wife to someone or living with a lovely hubby or even have any plans to go to that stage of life.

Just curious...

why the government look so serious into this case since the country is dealing with thousands of

really serious case such as fuel price hike up, robbery. Mr. acid splasher, prostitutions or even DIVORCEE cases!

Do they want all women to get married as early as they can- then deal with the 'marriage nonsense kinda things since they are not really prepare mentally, physically and spiritually to be a wife" -later to add another divorce case into the court-especially Syariah's?

Please re-look at this issue.

Its not that SERIOUS!

Its just part of the issues which always being brought by makciks2 in the country since god knows when!

Does it bother you if some ladies are not married yet after age 25??

Why should you care???

Again-my 69cents.

So, please dont bother to ask why some people are just not married and maybe they are not like you- the "wifey type" or they are not marriageable!

Good morning people!

Have a great Wednesday!

Hoppers

People called me a job hopper

and yet some people didnt know that I also can be called as house hopper.

Have you heard about that?

Moving houses is not really my thing.

But due to certain circumstances, I just had to.

I prefer not to move anywhere since I always attached to the places I live.

Its called home.

The shelter that I live and I will call it - a comfort place and where the heart is.

House hopper.

I need to move out again.

Since my best friend ran away from the husband and I think she ran away for good, this time.

Six months ago, (after the incident-and after left my uncle's place )Ive rented this place with her.

Paying nearly half of the rent makes me feel so fucking good even my room is much more smaller that my previous house.

Its started when my best friend ran away from home without telling me where she headed to.

Great!

That is the friendship value that I get from a friend whom I used to share the laughter,sadness and the tears.

People could change within seconds!

Bear in mind, nothing lasts forever..Not your husband..Not even your friend whom you thought would be with you for quite sometimes.

She had some problems with the husband.

Being a second lady in that guy's life-was not easy.

Listening to the weird sounds while she was crying over some arguments makes me feel so protective towards her. Plus some abusive relationship kinda thing...

Supporting her till her last day with me-Sunday makes my heart break to pieces.

I havent shed any tears for quite sometimes and yet I cried over a best friend who never bother to think about others. Especially me! =) Nice huh?

She decided to go. When? I didnt know! Where? I never know!

That her final decision.

I have no other words to say.

Its more like a friendship-breakup which I dont think I'll be the same Lea again to her in the future.

She must have some concrete reason for doing that!

May God bless her in everything she do.

And May God protect her in any kinds of way.

Shes gone anyway...and I have no intention to find her.

Let her decide whats best for her!

All I could do is praying for her safety and happiness!

Take care, Na!

Now..Me and another housemate's story..

We were given a month by her husband who rushing-ly decide to let go this condo unit within month.

Since we both think that we couldn't afford to pay the whole monthly rent!

He gave another month for us to leave.

Life sucks eh sometimes?

Well, its fine with us.

We'll survive even we are in a deepshit!

Pity my other housemate-Aniz since she just moved in this month and I feel responsible for her as I was the one who brought her in.

Sorry Aniz..=( Never know this would happen so fucking fast!

Just because a friend who took a crazy decision..we will be kicked out next month!

I am thinking...

God is so great.

Some people doesn't think about others and we have always think about ourselves first next time

Hahhh!

Being selfish-its just not me,baby!

House hunting season starting today.

Be positive and always have faith in the this session!

I surely hate packing and unpacking again. Supertired like shit!

However,

God is always testing us.

I am speechless and only following the flow.

Everything happens for a reason..(bla bla bla..motivational sentence sometimes sounds so euw!)

I will continue to be nice to people and still have the courage to love my friends even someday they just left me without even a post note!

Life is fun!

Weeeheeeeeee!!!!

Test-It makes us stronger!

Cinta dan Seks

Cinta itu perasaan.

Seks itu nafsu,keinginan dan keperluan.

Dua perkara berbeza yang sering disalahtafsirkan pengertiannya.

Kalau kata Cinta mesti ada Seks.

Kalau ada Seks mesti ada Cinta.

Kedua-dua pernyataan itu tidak benar dan tidak boleh diambil pakai kerana ianya tidak boleh disangkutpautkan bersama.

Cinta lain.

Seks pun lain.

Tak sama.

Pengertian yang membawa maksud cinta dan seks perlu seiring susah untuk diterima kesahihannya.

Terutama sekali dengan adanya sosio budaya ketimuran yang menjaga kesopanan dan seks itu dianggap taboo, serta agama yang menolak perbuatan Cinta dan Seks perlu seiringan diluar perkahwinan.

Tak usah cerita manusia barat di luar negara

Dalam Malaysia pun banyak juga yang mempraktikkan Cinta dan Seks bersama sekaligus menyangkal kesucian instutusi perkahwinan.

Bila ditekankan dari aspek seks luar nikah, golongan remaja selalu menjadi cemuhan.

Pernahkah terfikir bahawa Seks luar nikah juga dipraktikkan oleh manusia-manusia yang sudah lanjut usianya?

Tak kira lelaki atau wanita.

Nafsu selalunya sukar dikawal dengan akal dan fikiran yang stabil serta rasional.

Bukan soal seks luar nikah jadi canangan.

Soal manusia berfikir yang

Cinta dan Seks perlu seiringan.

Tidak sama sekali.

Namun terpulang pada pendapat individu berkenaan hal itu.

Persoalan ini timbul bila selalunya perempuan menjadi mangsa putarbelit si jantan jahanam dalam menyatakan "Cinta itu perlukan Seks untuk hidup subur'

Mengarut!

Cinta boleh berdiri dengan sendirinya kerana perasaan mampu bertahan dalam jiwa.

Seks itu disogokkan dengan perasaan yang berlandaskan nafsu semata-mata dan paling hebat, seks itu hanya akan bertahan selama semalaman.

Lepas dan cum..whats next?

Aku tak menghentam si lelaki-lelaki kurang baik dan sangat mementingkan diri mereka hanya untuk kepuasan kemaluan di dalam seluar itu saja...

Namun, tundingan jari harus diberikan pada si perempuan-perempuan yang tak mampu menggunakan psikologi atas diri sendiri lantas memberikan batang tubuh dengan sewenang-wenangnya secara paksarela atas dasar Cinta.

Seks itu sedap.

Namun, seks itu tidak menyedapkan Cinta.

Tepuk dada, tanya hati, fikir dengan akal yang diberi.

Jangan nak salahkan orang- salahkan diri sendiri.

Jangan suka-suka nak tunding jari

Sebab,kalau dua-dua suka dan rasa sedap.....siapa pun takkan kata dirinya rugi!

Just my 69cents.

Nothing more, Nothing Less!

Baby Talk-ing

I didn't check my old write up here. I never bother to check and I don't ask you to vet through all the 400+ posting here.

So, apologize if I have raised the same subject as the header or maybe write the same stuff in the same url.

Baby Talk.

Its only cute when it comes from babies.

But, definitely NOT from you as an elderly.

What were you thinking?

Baby-talking on social networking?

Regardless whether its on facebook or twitter ..its just so not cool!

How old are you again?

Hah.

I feel annoyed with some friends who tried to look CUTE and COOL by using some of the baby language of her page.

I understand...

No one is forcing me to stalk and go through their page.

Who gives a fuck kan?

People will say this

"Sapa suruh tengok?Nak sentap2/marah2 tgk page aku siapa suruh??"

Lahh.....please blame Mr Zukerberg for his system where I already clicked "Hide all post from xxx"..and your updates still popped up into my news feed.

Not good. Not good!

So, tell me -how am I supposed to let go my annoying-emotion to certain people on facebook?

Its not that I hate them or something.

Its just...we dont have the similiar kind of "language" anymore.

I deleted friends only when I think -

"I can't be your friend anymore and I think I should remove you since we are not talking to each other anymore"

Deleting friends on facebook-not really my thing!

So, whats up with the baby-talking??

Duhh..

I know you wanna look COOL,CUTE,BUBBLY or maybe LOVELY to some people..

But, its not THAT CUTE though.

It doesn't jive with you age and the current situation where you have more than 200++ viewers as your friends on the social network!

I believed,BABY TALK applies for babies and to your partner (before or after sex and ONLY when NO ONE is AROUND-except both of you)

Don't baby-talking to everyone, please.

Its just sounds "Euuuuuuwwwwwww-ishh"

Just my 69cents. =)

Aku dan KLCC

Setiap pagi, inilah laluan aku nak pergi office.

Office yang letaknya antara KLCC dan Pavillion adalah betul2 dalam kawasan segitiga emas bandaraya Kuala Lumpur.

Dari dulu sampai sekarang,aku memang suka tengok KLCC,macam satu keajaiban didepan mata. Dengan struktur binaan, sangat membanggakan!
I am in love!

Sejak umur 12 tahun, kalau pergi KL, jadi satu perkara wajib-pergi tengok KLCC. Tak masuk Suria pun takpelah! Janji lalu tepi KLCC. Sedikit kekampungan ye. Tapi, peduli apa! Kg.com pun kg.com lah!

Bercita-cita nak kerja dalam Twin Tower- (tak kiralah Tower 1 ke Tower 2) sudah menjadi azam sejak aku jatuh cinta dengan KLCC 14 tahun dulu.
Walaupun azam masih tak sampai2 lagi, aku tetap bercinta dengan KLCC.

Almost-tak dapat keje dalam twin tower pun takpe sebab sekarang ni setiap pagi dapat tgk KLCC masa on the way pergi kerja dan sejak dua tahun lepas sempat jugak naik turun meeting dengan sponsor/client yang office mereka terletak dalam tower KLCC :)

Aku pasti- ramai juga yang bercinta dalam diam dengan KLCC macam aku kan?

Insyallah- panjang umur dan ada jodoh-dapatlah duduk atas kerusi pejabat yang terletak dalam KLCC. Tak kiralah tower mana sekalipun!
Hah! Cita2 tinggi melangit!
:)

I love you KLCC!
I am a proud Malaysian!

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Ayam dan Berbogel

Ayam dan Berbogel.

Tiada kena mengena antara satu sama lain.

(Walaupun cik Fatin Nuraini menganugerahkan aku nick name-Ayam Rusia..ia masih lagi tiada kena mengena dengan ini cerita)

Cuma ...

Makan tengah hari -Nasi Ayam Mancongkam yang ditaja oleh kawan baik aku, Yui .

Tapi ayam itu juga tidak berbaju dan telah garing di goreng.

Sedap! Nasi ayam terbaik serata KL!

Sila google: Nasi Ayam Mancongkam. Addicted oi!

Dah makan setengah jalan baru ingat nak amik gambar!

Ayam makan ayam. Camne?

Dan mengapa berbogel menjadi subjek juga...?

Bila sewaktu jalan pulang ke office aku nampak aksi pembogelan beramai2...

"Berbogel adalah Kebebasan"

Patung-patung bogel di Kompleks Kraf ni buat aku seriau

Oi! Tengah2 hari orang tak bogel la..Orang bogel time MALAM aje lah.:P

Penghijrahan

Orang kata berhijrah itu mendatangkan banyak kebaikan.

Ye ke?

Tapi kalau dah berhijrah tempat ke kubikal yang bila Big Boss bukak aje pintu terus nampak punggung aku.

Dan juga skrin komputer riba aku.

Itu kebaikkankah?

Hek eleh!

Ok. Sangat marah!

Marah sampaikan terus blah tinggalkan Senior Asst Director, Manager, Senior Exec yang sedang berdiskusi tentang penempatan department baru kitaorg.

Blah terus kuar pergi hisap rokok!

Bagus kan?

Aku kalau marah, sekarang ni tak ada maki-maki, hentak-hentak kaki dan tak selalu mendengus.

Angkat kaki- Jalan!

Blah aje..sebab tak ada guna kau nak merungut pun!

Lepas ni, banyaklah lagi gossip dalam office yang akan korang dengar dalam timeline twitter aku.

Dan seharusnya, screen protector yang tinted itu akan dipasang pada laptop.

Kemudiannya aku akan terus diam tanpa bicara dengan manusia-manusia dalam office ini.

Bercakap pasal kerja sahaja ye.

*Japanese attitude activated*

Full stop.

Marah sangat ni.

Sangat marah!

Marah yang marah marah sangat!

@#$#%$^%&^*&(*^%#$!$#%%&^(*)%$$$%$%$#$@@!!$#%^&*(*(*)

Langit memang tak selalunya cerah

Sekarang pun dah selalu hujan.

dan nasib malang itu selalu jugak melekat pada aku eh.

Heh?!

Terima kaseh Tuhan atas pemberian berita buruk ini.

Oh.....dunia!

*Hijrah itu pengorbanan...(Ye..korban space aku dan kelebihan untuk buat apa saja tanpa ada orang nampak dekat skrin komputer)

Hidup ini indah bukan? =)

Haha.

2 kali punya Sakit Perut.

Semenjak tak mampu nak beli pewangi kereta yang berharga RM11 lebih dan semenjak dekat office baru ada daun pandan yang segar bugar, aku decided nak guna daun pandan sebagai pewangi kereta aku yang putih2 kelabu sebab tak rajin dicuci itu.

Tak perlu RM11 setengah, kereta aku wangi sepanjang masa.

Dua tiga hari, cabut yang baru..gantikan dengan yang dah kering dalam kereta tu.

Aku suka je bau daun pandan dalam kereta.

Mummy, abah semua pun suka!

Tapi kawan2 KL aku yang tak suka! Dorang kata-

"Naik kereta kau, baunya macam naik teksi"

T___T

Tapi, pokok daun pandan kat office ni banyak.

Serumpun besar.

Office tengah-tengah bandar, tapi compound besar.

Tepi banglo ni penuh dengan flora dan fauna

Pokok bunga, pokok kelapa, ada kucing dan tupai dan aku rasa pasti ada ular!

Disebabkan takut pasal ular tu la..

Aku takut nak cabut daun pandan tu sendiri pagi-pagi..

Lalu, masa pergi hisap rokok sorang-sorang, aku datang satu idea.

Nampak tukang kebun office aku..lalu memulakan perbualan dan meminta jasa baik dia..

Aku : Bang, mintak tolong cabutkan SIKIT daun pandan eh? Nak letak dalam kereta. Nanti tinggalkan tepi kereta, boleh tak?

Tukang Kebun : Ok. Ok. Kereta awak yang mana satu?

Aku: Myvi puteh yang hujung sekali.

Tukang Kebun : (Angguk dan berlalu pergi)

Tiga jam lepas tu...

Makna "sikit" bagi tukang kebun aku bersamaan dengan SEBALDI ye!

Ok.

Rasa nak gelak berguling2 pun ada.

Dah la hari ni 1st day turun darah

Perut da siap sedia sakit, di tambah pulak sakit perut sebagai hadiah gelihati dari tukang kebun office aku.

((Hahahahhahahahaahahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhahahahahahahha))

Aku hanya mampu senyum simpul dan gelak dalam hati sebab kat sini aku adalah wanita "Jepun" yang hanya senyum dan bercakap bila perlu.

Hahaha.

Serious rasa nak gelak kuat-kuat! Tapi aku tahan.

Alahai...bukan setakat kereta bau daun pandan..satu rumah sekali la jawabnya! Hahahahah

P/s- Untuk abang tukang kebun,

Terima kasih atas baik budi dan sikap pemurah anda. Sekarang saya faham makna "SIKIT" itu!

=))

Perkara-perkara yang menjengkelkan anda - Versi pemanduan di Kuala Lumpur

• · Kesesakan trafik- setiap hari..setiap masa, waimah pukul 2 pagi pun tetap jam jugak!

• · Tak ada parking kosong walaupun ada 5 tingkat ruang parking disediakan dan anda telah pusing sebanyak 5 kali!

• · Pemandu lembab dan terkial-kial nak keluar simpang jalan. Kau nak tunggu sampai esok jalan clear ke?Takut sangat orang nak langgar dia!

• · Orang yang memandu kereta tengah-tengah alam. WTF? Kau ingat jalan ni kau sorang yang punya? Aku bayar cukai jalan jugak lah!

• · Manusia yang melintas tak ikut zebra crossing dan terkedek2. Ingat kau lawa ke sampai aku kena berhentikan kereta aku untuk kau!

• · Teksi yang berhenti tepi jalan dengan sesuka hatinya untuk pick up passenger. Mangkuk hayun! Nak cari rezeki pun agak2lah, jangan menyusahkan orang!

• · Pemandu yang bawak kereta 40km/j tapi drive di lorong PALING KANAN! Apa kes?Kau ingat KL ni tepi pantai ke?

• · Pemandu-pemandu yang suka tonjol2 bontot kereta korang di lebuhraya padahal korang tengah drive line paling kiri sekali. WTF?

• · Penunggang motorsikal yang dengan sengajanya membunyikan hon sewaktu menyelit2 dalam trafik jam! Apahal kau ni?? Kalau takut kena langgar, jalan la sebelah kiri!

• · Pemandu yang suka tekan brek kereta setiap 3 saat padahal depan dia bukan ada kereta lain pun! Sakit otak eh?

• · Orang yang suka mendengki korang bila bawak kereta. Bila korang singnal kanan- dandan dia nak laju. Padahal tadi, before korang nak masuk..dia slow je..Macam %^&^#!

• · Traffik light yang tak berfungsi. Jadi tunggul kat tengah jalan. Tak ke menyusahkan orang tu?

• · Asal hujan je ..jam! Asal hujan je Jam! Hujan tak lah lebat dan tak ada accident pun! Orang-orang bawak kereta kat KL ni memang takut hujan ke?

• · Kereta-kereta yang mendatangkan pencemaran bunyi. Bunyi enjin, bunyi eksos mengalahkan motorboat! Ingat Evo ke Skyline ke..oklah jugak! Sekali tengok..Waja aje..Hahahaha..

)

Selamat Hari Isnin dan Selamat memandu dalam keadaan trafik di bandaraya membangun macam KL ni.

19

I used to hate football damn much.

I didn't understand the reason why people are so attached with football

Satu biji bola kejar ramai-ramai nak masukkan dalam gol? WTF?

However, being a sister to Ngah makes me get in touched with football since I was eight.

He was a die hard fan of Manchester United.

Changes his mind a while to became the Liverfool's supporter and back as truly Red Devil's fan since then.

Yet, I need to watched some of the games on tv.

Sucks!

Few years later...

2003- There is this one hot guy were playing for United which turns me on.

Because of him, I have decided to watch football. Hah.

To watch Manchester United game (to be exact) and decided to become one of the fan.

I never know what is football all about.

Nehi knowledge

No nothing!

What I know was- he is so fucking hot and I dont mind spending a day with him (He popped up in my dreams sometimes) Haha!

See? The looks can influence a lot of people on a lot of things?!

Its proven.

I wast into football that much at that time. (I just wanted to watch my imaginary boyfriend on the field)

Until, my ex introduced me the whole meaning of football in 2005.

(He fed me with the ESPN/Starsport and etc sports related channels everyday.ok!)

Then only I get to know what are the "offside", "added time", "strategy", "points", "Champions League", "EPL Title" and what-so-ever that related.

I get so connected and emotional later that.

Still, I only watch some of United's big game.

Meaning- i.e- United vs Chealshit or United vs Liverfools or United vs Arsengal

But, I did learn some of the jargon, tricks and the excitement of watching "Satu biji bola kejar ramai2 nak masukkan dalam gol- WTF"

The adrenaline and the excitement is indescribable.

Since my ex was a truly United fan since 1976..it makes it all goooooddd for both of us! =)

I could watch 3.00 am game (Malaysian time) on working days and hoo-haa-ing with the victory the next day!

I also do understand some of the "football lingo" and I do know most of the United player (especially my imaginary boyfriend)

The excitement continues till today.

Even, the imaginary boyfriend are no longer with United. He left for Barca.(Shit!)...

and my real boyfriend becoming an EX

I am still a Manchester United fan!

(Although I am not well-versed about football talk..yet I understand some of the things that you guys been talked about=P)

Congratulations for the 19th title!

Chealshit, Liverfools and Arsengal..EAT YOUR HEART OUT!

Next- Champions League title..guys! =p

Glory Glory Man United!

-The news which makes me proud,y'all!-

*Figured who is my imaginary boyfriend yet? Baby,I miss you really bad! Hah!(Perasan mode activated) Do come to Malaysia and meet me..puhleeezzzz? =D

However..Guys read this...

Girls do watch football also ya.. Do not underestimate us even we wears hi-heels and doesn't play football like men!

and..

Girls,remember this..

Men thinks-a girl who knows about football are much attractive rather than a girls who has a pretty face/a big boobs and only talks about fashion/make-up or Channel E! =) Its like an additional points!

I am celebrating the victory..that is why I am not sleeping yet. Oh..Its 4++ am eh?

All Manchester United fans, lets celebrate this! Its the 19th!!

Have a good weekend,people!

Hujan itu rahmat

Jalan Tun Razak, Kuala Lumpur
5.45 petang
12 Mei 2011

Alhamdulillah.
Orang KL bersorak sakan bila bandaraya dilimpahi rahmatNya.
Hujan yang di nanti akhirnya kunjung tiba.
Jerebu- sila pergi larikan diri.

Dan aku- tersangkut dalam sesak yang sama setiap hari.
Ah..hidup di KL memang begini. Trafiknya da sebati dengan diri walaupun selalu je menyumpah dalam hati.
=)


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2 good news at 1 time

Who says that you can't double the fun at the same time??

#1.

Esah-After quite sometimes,she finally get what she wants! Thank you Air Asia for making it happen!

and

#2.

Ajlaa- After few months she let people around starts "kepoh-ing" about THAT question..She is now officially a mommy- to-be!

Congratulations to both of you. See? how fun life is sometimes!

Praise to the Lord. Alhamdulillah!

I am sharing these freakinly-super-happy-great news to everybody!

Note:

=)

Insecure vs Confidence

"Insecurity will destroy you and your relationship! Confidence is attractive!"

I retweet that in the morning, since I bet- a lot of people around us are living in a low level of confidence.

Including me.

Insecurity- it has been moled into my life for the past 26 years.

Even I had been thought, been advised to be confident in anything I do.

Stiil, the insecurity of myself can be seen!

It is so obvious when comes to "relationship"

I was a very insecure Girlfriend.

-Full of jealousy and never believe in everything my partner said or whatever I did for both of us in the relationship.

If they didn't call/text- I wonder what was wrong with them?

Did I do something wrong?

Did I hurt them with my language?

"Are they having fun with anyone else?"

"Are they forgotten me already?"

"They just don't love me anymore?"

If they didnt say "I miss you or I love you" towards the end of conversation-

I assumed that- They just dont love me.. and then..all this pretty-cute-but-annoying-question came out from my mouth

"Don't you miss me?"

or

"Do you love me?"

Insecure-insecure-insecure.

Fuck all that!

It is unhealthy attitude in a relationship.

Jealousy comes from the insecurity.

The insecurity might be the reason why he/she left you or you decided to go!

How to gain "confidence" in life?

By adapting all the experience that you gain in everyday life.

There are no top class university could make you gain your self-confident.

Even they could teach you -how to be confident.

Its all up to you to decide.

No one could force you to do it. Even you parents can only tell you how to look confident.

Insecurity could destroy your lovelife and your relationship with all the people in the world.

Please tell me..is there anyone in the world wants to be interact with a person who always thought that they are "stupid", "unpretty", "not-good enough in everything they do", "extrovert", "never trust her/himself" , "negative towards everything in life.." ALL the time??

We want to live the life to the fullest.

Enjoying every single details that happened in our life.

Becoming a confident person is part and parcel in making your life much more fun!

Learn how to be confident despite whatever people say about you.

Believe in yourself.

Felling down is normal.

Jealousy is also pretty normal but you just have to set a standard on the " healthy-jealousy-level"

Like a good friend, Coco always said "Confident itu penting ye!" =)

Still, I am dealing with "insecurity" every now and then.

Be confident, it easy to say.

Its hard to be -one!

I am sick of you and because of you I am sick

Lets not pointing to anyone.

It perfectly just you!

You made my life upside down.

Its just you. Nothing else.

Dear Mr Sore throat,

I bet you came due to the weather..

Even you are blaming the weather..I am still pointing my finger to you.

Uh Uh..

No..don't you ever say that my consumption of ciggies is the reason why you are here..

Its just you.

You are not in a right position to tell me that I did not drink a lot of water for the past one week..

and you made up all that just to stand on your motion that I am the one to be blame??

(I am a bit denial)

Well, to sum its up..everything plays a role for this pathetic sore throat which just made me received my 1st MC in the new organization.

Tadaaaa

Its so hot out there..I could even sleep at all in the whole afternoon even I am partly sick!

We might need some water pour from the above which we called it- RAIN.

Sighh...

Positive Note

Being negative towards my own life is always -me.

Looking at things differently just make me think of the negative thoughts.

That is not healthy.

I know.

Yet, with the negative aura..I live my life with tons of beautiful memories and the worst case scenario that always come-and-go.

However, some people mistaken that I am actually passing the negativity to other people's life.

No.

I didn't do it and so far as I remember, I havent done such a way yet.

I know we were given different path of life.

You might going to A and I might leaving the B to follow the route C.

It will never be the same.

I always showered my people with the positive note.

Especially friends who always be there for me.

When someone came and ask for an opinion..I tried to find the win-win solution for them.

Especially on the most complicated and the most important essence in life which called-LOVE.

No.

I am not the love doctor.

How could you be the love-doctor if you..yourself not even having one?

Stilll, the terms LOVE is quite subjective eh.

I am more giving them opinion on the other perspective in relationship matters.

Even my lovelife suck previously and till now...like I dont have any?!

Doesnt mean I cant help others!

And yet..when I get into so"positive"..still some people think that I am nonsense!

Dah!

No one wants to see the people that they love having a bad day, a JK moments, the down situation or whatever they called it!

Sometimes, money is not the answer for everything even money could buy happiness.

Supporting your people with the best positive opinion is more than enough sometimes. or most of the time.

As a human, we could tell them our opinion or "If I were you" kinda thing.

Giving the pro and cons on every scenario that they are dealing with are the best that I can do..most of the time.

We can't force them and tell them what to do.

They are matured enough to think whats the best for them.

Seeing they happy with their own choice is the greatest feeling on earth- at least for me.

Let them decide on anything that suits them best.

As a friend, you can only listen and give your personal opinion.

I always make sure this sentence came out from my mouth towards the end of the conversation

"I already tell you what are pro and cons of this. Now, its your call to make the decision!"

and yet..I am still here to listen and give my opinion on whatever trouble that they facing after the decision or so called their "bad-judgement" been made.

What friends for?

Make them happy and comfy when they with you.

Thats the real friendship.

And please put everything negative thoughts on their scenario.

Tell yourself that..

"Your life are different than mine..The steps that you took might be opposite than the one I chose!"

Trust me..you'll be happy. Sure, it works! I have done it hundred times.

That is why ..my friends are my family now.

They appreciate you more than the rest since you always be a good listener and supporting them in any kind of situation of their life.

Please don't judge and please leave the thoughts of -"I have to make my life better than yours!"

Since we are just human and we still make mistakes everyday.

Good night people!

=D

"Wanita yang lagi satu"/ "Wanita lain"

"Wanita lain" atau "Wanita lagi satu" mempunyai definisi yang sama dengan

The Other Woman.

Menjadi pihak ketiga dalam sesebuah perhubungan kasih sayang orang lain adalah juga merujuk kepada - wanita yang lagi satu.

• Perampas
• Pengacau
• Perempuan tak tahu malu
• Perempuan tak sedar diri
• Perempuan sundal
• Perempuan jalang

dan pelbagai panggilan negatif diatas juga merujuk kepada - Wanita yang lagi satu

Siapa suka kehadiran adanya "Wanita yang lagi satu" atau "Wanita lain" dalam perhubungan cinta atau perkahwinan?

Tak ada.

Wanita lain ini juga selalu diklasifikasikan sebagai perempuan jahat.

Pernah tak korang terfikir pepatah ini - "Tepuk sebelah tangan ..takkan berbunyi"?

Ramai wanita yang dah berkahwin(malah ada yang baru berkahwin tak sampai 5 tahun) meroyan-royan macam orang hilang akal dalam ruang sosial internet apabila dapat tahu si suami yang diletak atas kepala dan disanjung tinggi..ataupun yang di anggap macam malaikat itu- KANTOI mempunyai hubungan dengan "wanita lain" di luar perkahwinan mereka.

Mungkin tindak tanduk meletakkan "cerita dalam kain" pada tatapan umum menjadi satu trend masa kini..

Waimah begitu...pernahkah terfikir yang "menjatuhkan air muka suami" itu bukankah ianya berdosa?

Bukan nak menyokong suami2 korang kahwin lebih daripada satu!

Memang takkkkk laaaahhhhh kannnn!!!

Boys will be boys..

Dah nama pun jantan. Mana pernah cukup satu..Memang hakikatnya dah macam gitu!

Yang gediknya- si isteri2 yang meroyan tak tentu pasal tu!

Janganlah malukan suami korang dan terutamanya malukan diri sendiri!

Ini yang baru dikatakan "Tak tahu malu"

Jaja cerita dalam kelambu, dalam kain pada ratusan manusia dalam facebook..twitter dan juga blog. Adeh...sakit mataku!

Cerita suami sendiri ada affair dengan perempuan lain, sapa perempuan tu, nama dia..pakai baju apa, rupa dia macam mana (yang penting dia lagi cantik dr korang kan??) dan lain2 lagi cerita....

Sebenarnya, bila korang buat macamtu, niat korang nak malukan "wanita yang lagi satu" itu dah jadi terbalik.

Korang memalukan diri sendiri aje.

Lepas maki-maki orang dalam segala laman sosial internet bagai...

Korang sebut-sebut nama tuhan, mintak tuhan datangkan "bala" pada si "wanita lain" itu.

Dah...tambah lagi satu dosa..

Mendoakan manusia lain ditimpa kecelakaan?

Bagus betul ye amalan itu.. =) Sapa ajar korang?

Aku dah baca banyak cerita2 makian..cercaan pada "wanita yang lagi satu" dalam internet ni.

Aku kasihan pada si penulis itu..si isteri yang diduakan suaminya

Si isteri yang memberi sepenuh kasih sayang, cinta dunia dan akhirat..

Si isteri yang berharap sang suami itu mampu membawanya ke syurga...

Si isteri yang mahukan "eternity love" dan "happily ever after"

Si isteri yang kecewa amat sangat bagai malam bertukar jadi siang dan siang bertukar jadi malam.

Tak ke jahanam sang suami itu?

(Ok..sedikit emo)

Macam aku cakap tadi..

Boys will be boys..

The word "men" is just not significant enough for these kinds of guy.

Kenapa isteri-isteri itu meroyan?

Kerana mereka kecewa dan yang penting..5W +1H punya soalan akan keluar dari hati si isteri apabila terjadinya kes sang suami hidung belang dan menyimpan "wanita lain" di luar rumah.

• What are you doing?
• When it started?
• Why are you doing this to me?
• Who is she?
• Where is she staying?

and

• How it happened/ How does she look like???

Syurganya isteri letak di bawah kaki suami.

Aku mengerti konsep tersebut walaupun aku takut dan tak mahu fikir untuk menghadapi kenyataan itu.

"Nothing lasts forever, woman!"

"Wanita yang lagi satu" itu pun tak hingin nak jadi begini.

Jadi yang belum ada laki macam aku ni kena berhati-hati...

Cinta itukan subjektif.

Cinta boleh datang dengan tiba-tiba.

Cinta itu diibaratkan berbentu sfera.

Tiada hujungnya antara manusia.

Suami korang yang di junjung diatas kepala itu ...haruslah disoal siasat dahulu ye!

Jangan salahkan orang terus..

Salahkan laki kita dulu!

Jangan canang sekampung!

Tak payah bikin malu...

Ramai orang kasihan

Tapi sebenarnya ketawakan kita..

Kata "tak pandai jaga laki..tu pasal laki dia buat camtu!.."

Cerita rumahtangga yang tak enak tak perlu dijaja merata dunia..

Aku simpati pada sang2 isteri yang dirobek perasaan murninya...

Kepada sang suami..

"Haihsssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Fikir guna akal boleh tak?"

"Berkongsi kasih bukan sedapnya di anu saje, ok?"

Cinta itu perasaan.

Seks itu nafsu.

Tak sama ok.

Ada paham?

Blues attacked!

Today I don't feel like doing anything.....

This is what I feel today.

Malas ye.

SuperLazy like a lizard.

Its almost 12.00 pm.

My stomach is growling..loudly..

The office is in silent.

So, the sounds of my stomach can be heard clearly.

Hahaha

The Monday blues hitting me quite serious.

Since 8.30 am till now..

What I did was replying email (office and personal), facebooking, tweeting, bmm-ing and youtubing..also typing.

Even the Red Devils won over The Blues last nite..but still the blues is attacking me today. (Glory Glory Man United!!!..Glory2 Man United!!!) =D

Its Monday.Its normal.

Most of the people are quite lazy..including me.

I am hungry.

Been thinking of KFC for the past one week.

This crazy- period- craving is back!

I always believe, when you are single..you tend to make "food" as your sparing partner.

Kan?

I eat like nobody business.

Craving for this and that.

Eat like a bull and enjoying the cuisine like I have no tomorrow.

End up, the results of too much happiness in eating is this.

My sexy bloated tummy and my extra size of the sexy ass.

Nothing lasts forever, so does the happiness of enjoying any cuisine in life!

Eating is part of my happiness so I need not to bullshitting and complaining about why I am so fat these days.=)

Pay back time, yaww!!

I am thinking of Yoga, fasting and back to the driving range again..and please dont forget - the brisk walk in the evening.

Get ready to fire the fat!

But still..I have to move my ass first!

"Lazy"- need to be dumped into the bin!

Best for the "Gedik" sickness

Have you ever been - Gedik?

Tell me that you never feel that gedikness in your entire life.

That is a lie!

I always portray myself as a very firm one.

In fact I do not entertain most of the nonsense hooohaaa-hoohaaa kinda attitude.

However, I just realize that I will be "Gedik" when I'm sick.

Saiko eh!

That is the moment that I'll be super fragile.

Whether its a fever, sore throat, flue or whatsoever, the gedikness will be shown.

Aha!

Last weekend was a very tiring weekend.

Our sibs gathering which is - date with the Durians, Freelance work brainstorming,Weddings, nite meet-up and that makes me fell sick!

Oh, not forgotten- the hot hot hot hot...weather.

By smoking too much (I guess) and drink less water..I was down with slight fever and very bad sore throat.

On Saturday nite, I turned down Na's birthday Dinnner , nite outing and an invitation to watch Fast Five.

Blame the sore throat which makes me feel so uncomfortable and decided not to go for all that.

Sorry people!=(

I drank a lot of water and cut my take on the ciggie..I lost my appetite and I slept a bit early, then woke up like 13 hours later.

Gah! That was an amazing sleep I ever had for the whole week. =)

My eyes were swollen and my throat was still like that. Pain!

Wanted to go to the clinic and so lazy to drive and do so!

Then, one of a kind friend called me up and offer his best service to send me to the clinic.

I brought my water bottle in my bag, since I had to drink a lot.

However, on the way there...I changed my mind.

I think it I dont have to meet the doctor and I just had to go to the pharmacy to buy something to suck!

We went to have lunch after the visit at the pharmacy.

and guess what?

I think the medicine is not the one that I got from the pharmacy...

But..the perfect medicine is this....

Please meet - The Pavlova! (The best cake on earth at the moment)

My friend said I dont need to see the doctor or buy RM20 something lozenges from the pharmacy... - This is best for the "GEDIK" sickness.

Too bad that I am "Gedik" when I am sick!

Thank you for giving me the best medication for my sickness.

=D

Me love Pavlova!

Alexis again this week....anyone? ;-)

Modal

Nak berniaga seharusnya mesti kena ada MODAL duit

Begitu juga nak memulakan perbualan dengan orang lain..perlukan MODAL bercakap

Malah, MODAL juga diperlukan apabila hendak menulis. Namanya MODAL nak merepek!

MODAL nak merepek dalam bulan Mei ni kurang pulak.

Aku lebih suka "blog-walking" dan "stalking" blog orang lain.

Baca dan analisa sendiri diam-diam tanpa ajak sesiapa.

Apa sudah jadi?

Modal nak merepek tak ada!

Padahal ...setiap minggu ..terlampau banyak perkara-perkara enak dan seronok yang berlaku.

Tapi, MODAL tu takde.

Taip separuh...delete. taip-padam. Taip satu perkataan- terus "unsaved changes" dan "leave this page"

Tak ada MODAL.

Orang kata. kalau tak ada MODAL memang apa pun tak jadi.

Aku setuju!

MODAL bukan sekadar duit..idea, kesungguhan, subject juga boleh diklasifikasikan sebagai MODAL.

Oh.

Hari Sabtu malam dirumah. Dalam bilik (secara spesifiknya)

Panas,lapar.sakit tekak dan mata hampir terkatup.

Tak de MODAL la malam ni. Masih!

Selamat Malam Minggu!=D

*shiekin..ampunkan patik ya. Memang tak ada modal untuk taip apa-apa.Aku publishkan yang ini pun atas permintaan kau*

Haha

What to tell?

A long weekend feels so short

I am yawning in the office

What am I thinking now?

My bed

Thats all.