Sayonara 2012

Sayonara 2012.

Looking forward for 2013.

Happy New Year, people!

^_^

Things I like during the year end

1. Less work in the office. (So, I could be internet's best friend.lol)
2. Peaceful surroundings (Many people decided to clear their annual leaves in the year end, so less people in the office! Yay!)
3. Less traffic congested (This is the best thing ever happened for this week. Wake up at 7.45am, went out from home to work at 8.00 am and reach office at 8.21 am..Is that wonderful?? I feel BLESSed! lol)
4. Less stress (This is the LOW PERIOD yawww! ^_^)
5. The ability to clean up the mess (Regardless whether its work or personal related stuff.. I just love to clean up the mess and straighten the awkward situation when comes to year end. Maybe just to start the new year with the cleaner feeling..I guess? :P)
6. Down memory lane (Its time to remember analyse all my action for the pass 365 days. Phew!)
7. Set the target (Even I hate planning but I love to set some target for the next 365 years. Let see...what should I achieve in 2013 -_-")
8. People are much calm and happy. (lol. That includes bosses, friends and family..they much more relax and enjoying the low period of the year..nothing to rush and all the small issues can be brought forward next year..yay!)

There are few things that I love about year end but I simply think that its unnecessary to blow it here.

Well, till today I cant find anyone who hates the year end as we hate every Monday so much ..every week!:P

3 days and counting to 2013! Yippie!

Dosa kering

Penghujung tahun, bila tak sibuk..inilah masa yang paling mudah aku digoda syaitan dengan segala bisikan-bisikan jahatnya.

Memang jahat setan ni. 

Di dorong nafsu dan pelbagai bisikan yang ditiupkan ditelinga, aku selalunya tewas.

lol.

Ini salah satu sebab kenapa aku memang tak suka jika graf kesibukan dalam konteks pekerjaan semakin menurun.

Its the festive season..i cant help it :'(

No one would work like crazy and people normally waiting for next year.

Next year which will be arrived on a week time. 7 days left!

Bila tak ada kerja, internet menjadi terapi kebosanan.

Media sosial ini kadang kala memanglah menunjukkan "kesialan"nya.

Aku tak pasti sama ada penangan sosial media ni lebih kepada pro atau kontra.

Bagi aku sekarang, ianya banyak beza daripada sebelumnya.

Aku tidak lagi membebel yang ya dan yang tidak melalui Twitter sejak sebulan lalu.

Aku dah tak mengutarakan ayat-ayat hikmah yang berputar belit di Facebook sejak berbulan-bulan lampau..

Bila aku TIDAK SIBUK dan bosan ... aku upload satu dua gambar profil terbaru dan disinilah aku taipkan bait-bait perasaan yang entah apa-apa sebagai kenangan masa akan datang.

Cuma Instagram menjadi satu medium dan aplikasi yang aku selalu lawati dan menaikturun gambar-gambar yang aku rasa "seksi" -_-"

Jadi, bila kita tak mengekspreskan diri kita...kita akan selalu membaca apa-apa posting yang muncul dalam news feed.

Ya ampun....

Aku rasa..Facebook menyebab utama aku mengumpul dosa-dosa kering setiap hari.

Twitter pun macam tu.

Kenapalah aku ada hati yang macam Kak Nam ni?? T___T

*Macammanalah orang dok kutuk aku zaman aku dok berhoohaa dalam twitter dan facebook dulu?*- Amik cermin, malu nak tengok! :P

Aku selalu mohon pada Allah supaya disucikan hati dari sibuk memperkatakan orang lain dengan diri sendiri..

Ya..aku mengumpat dengan diri sendiri setiap hari.

Itu persepsi !

Susah untuk tidak menjadi skeptikal dengan keadaan yang sebegini.

Serius ...itu adalah susah untuk aku.

Lama kelamaan ..aku tanamkan dalam diri- "Lantak pi lah depa! Janji depa happy"

*Sebab aku dulu pun lagi teruk mengexposekan diri sendiri dalam internet* Euwwww! Attention seeker!

Tapi aku dapat beberapa konklusi...

Media sosial ini memang medium untuk kita nak menunjuk-nunjuk!

Medium untuk mendapatkan pujian..

Medium untuk mendapatkan dosa kering dan dosa yang tak pasal-pasal kita dapat..

Walhal, Media sosial ini sepatutnya menjadi medium untuk merapatkan silahturrahhim...

Aku blur. Segan dengan diri sendiri.

Aku akan cuba membaca ditempat lain dari menjadi perempuan kepoh nak amik tau hal orang melalui sosial media. :P

Yang pasti...aku benci bila kerja tak berapa memerlukan kesibukan aku dan kalau rasa macam ni ada...betul agaknya orang kata yang aku dah kahwin dengan kerja. -_-"

Merry Christmas for those who celebrating it! :D

The Meet Up

The last time we've met was in February, I guess..if I'm not mistaken. Iol.

It was really hard to gathered everyone to be at the same place and same time. But finally, we've made it (even as usual- some of us being late)

Too many things to talk and laugh about.
The few hours meet up doesn't simplified every each stories and gossips brought out by each of us.
Most topics are related to work, family and relationship.
And for the first time, I guess I was the least talker during the session.(But as always, became the one who is having a loudest laugh) :p
Maybe it was because I'm the eldest and have a not-so-interesting-lifestory to share. Or I just love to hear more than to talk these days. Haha.

Afterall, it was a very productive meet up as we've planned for our next Perhentian vacation next year. (Yayyyy!!)

Our next meet up need to be done in a month time since we don't think after so many months of keeping the hot stories and gossips..all that can be told within few hours? -_-''
It just can't be done..really..

Anyway...it is always great to have your ex- officemates as one bunch of people who still hold the friendship. I guess..it is beautiful..

Thank you for the time,people!
Esah- I'll pray for your wedding date to be brought forward. ;) Kiki- he's a keeper! LOL
Mini- you worth more than that. You'll find a better place to show your talent soon!
Coco- Your biceps are just too much :p looking good these days. Haha

See you guys in January 2013! ;)

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To work or not to work.The Perspective

As I've read some opinions from the world of internet, today

I realized one thing.

A lot of woman these days would want to be a housewife.

Ya.. I had the same thinking years ago.

Lady of Leisure. Sounds NICEEEEEEEEEEE, right?

But, after some incident happened and after tons of consideration, I don't think by becoming a "full-time-hommie" could make me happy.

Really?

Opinion..opinion..opinion.

We live in a different kinds of perspective.

What we think could be right mostly are wrong to certain groups of people and vice versa.

Being a full time housewives takes a lot of courage and patience.

Creativity is also one of the important elements in becoming a successful housewife.

I've tried once few years back.

Staying home was a real great pleasure for the first week and after a month passed, I felt like every moment passes are just too slow and I need some "air" to breath.

After all, maybe I was childless (and still) - cleaning the house, cooking, reading and washing are easily bored me.

It just doesn't bring me anywhere. My achievement of the day was cooking the best meal for the day for the partner and the cleanliness of the house are up to 99%.

My excitement of the day was just waiting for the loved one to came home after work..everyday.

The routine had killed me inside. Even at that particular time, money was never being an issue.

That is my humble opinion.

My mother is also have the same curve of point in my perspective of being a full time housewife.

Shes a wife. A mother of four and taking care of one grandson.

She said " If I can still do..I rather work than staying home.." (Shes been working for 17 years and decided to quit just because of her health issue).

Therefore, if any of her daughter decided to become a full time housewife..she always think that is one of the decision that they might regret later.

Again..in this new era, I can see thousands of men around me are so proud to tell their surroundings on how great their women at work.

Proud husbands especially been tolerating much about their wives who are considered as a SUPERWOMEN.

Proudly tell around that their wives are working in a large MNCs, having a full time job in a great companies /corporatuions with the great pay and top positions.

These types of men are normally considerate, open minded well educated and have giving a higher respect to their lady.

Compared to some men whos having a full time wife at home..they normally doesnt like to talk about the achievement of their wives. Even, they know being a full time housewife is a REAL TOUGH JOB in the world. As if nothing can be told just because the wife doesnt bring any extra income in generating the family economy. (Bloody heck!)

Well, I am career oriented person. Being a lady doesn't mean I cant contribute enough to the society and in terms of economically. Also, being a "collie" doesnt sounds so bad as you'll get the real life experience and paid by end of the month. :)

Therefore, I don't think at this particular time..I want to be a housewife.

Sarcastically people would say a lot of things to against my opinion but somehow... I always believed that No one could ever dictate my life except me.

:)

Some lady friends of mine are holding a great position in their career and yet they are coming from a rich family and they are also a wife and a mother... I can see that they are having a good life even sometimes they also been thinking that they havent got enough time to spend with their kids.

Again in my opinion..."enough time" means what?

When the kids are little..yes.. they need the mother like 24-7.

But when they reach certain age..they'll sure taking their own path in their life journey.

So, whats left for us as a woman?

Still staying at home, doing house chores, lonely and keep waiting for the children to come and visit (just because the kids has grown up and moved out) and WITHOUT ANY PERSONAL LIFE ACHIEVEMENTS?

Those are the things that I always think of when comes to this issue (Ya, Sometimes I had over-thinking)=P

Well, the decision is yours.

As for me, I am sticking to my motion (as for now).

Work for better life! :D

Early excitement.

Pangkor on late November/ early December was my last real vacation.
Put aside the KK and Penang trips recently.
Those can't be considered as vacation.
Working doesn't mean resting.
But, still I am thankful and proud for the travel opportunity from office every once a month. :)
The job that pays you to be out of town sometimes. Don't you think its great?
As a person like me..I think that is a rezeki!

Btw,I'm planning for another vacation as early as the 2013 starts.
When everybody is coming back from their year end holiday...or when everyone is busy with their work plans in 2013 or even some parents are busy sending their kids to 'first- day- of- school thingy'..
That will be the time for me to run away from the country.

Not too far from my hometown (and yet..that country is Mummy's kampung..afterall I was there last Raya..)but I believe it will be a great start for 2013.
I hate life planning but as an event personnel..I always believe in a good vacation plan. :) even if its so-called a 'backpacking' holiday.

I've done my research as I'll be the guidance for someone who's never been in Temasek in her life. :p
It'll be so much fun!

As my 5 days of leave approved by my great HOD today.. My mind is already in my vacation-planning-kit most of the time.

This is a great kick start for January 2013 as I already have Kuching and Bangkok written in my diary for that particular month also. :p

Work and company trip will be another excitement waiting for the 1st quarter.

Its 211212. Allah is blessing us..I believe! :)

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Down Memory Lane

As I went tru all my boxes during the spring cleaning session this week, I realised there is a treasure that I've been keeping for more than 10 years in my life.

-My collection of real-life diaries.
I opened the box and read every each of the diary..
I think I had few goose bumps during the reading session. Wondering how immature I was during my younger days. LoL!

I've read all the sentences and the words written by myself since I was 12 years old and realised too many things I've done in my life.. Good, bad, happy and sad. -_-''

I used to be very emotional as a teenager and still an emotional lady now. :p
The experiences, the feelings and the mistakes I've done has brought me back to the memory..
I smiled and even cried while reading it..
I was also trying to figure some names and the issues that related to certain stories. Too many names..too many stories!

That's was my real life story.
I believe no one ever lie to their diary. Writing a diary is still the best therapy besides talking.. That is what I think.

Started in 97,98,99,2000,2001,2002,2003,2004,2005 and stopped at 2006..I gave up with the therapy..
And I blaming the social networking sited for this.. LOL.
Typing is much easier than holding a pen and write..isn't?

I think that I'll be starting to write again for myself..I will in 2013.
I would like to live in my own memory and read all my life story in few years time..I will try my best for this.

Diary is always be my best friend.
2013..I'll be engaged again with my diary..
There will be a real story who no one could ever know except me..
Insyallah.. :)


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Cantik itu subjektif?

Semenjak dua ni rasanya susah nak melihat cermin dengan perasaan yang kuat mengatakan diri sendiri "cantik"

Kenapa?

Melangkaui umur selepas 25 tahun, kebanyakkan wanita akan mempunyai masalah yang sama.

Bukan soal nak kahwin atau kekasih atau pasangan.

Tapi sebab KEGEMUKAN.

Kadar metabolisma badan bagaikan turun merundum bila dah lepas umur 25tahun.

Especially untuk orang-orang macam aku yang sememangnya mengamalkan gaya hidup kurang sihat.

Lets put aside on my lifestyle. LOL.

Hari ni, aku dah lost count berapa hari tak makan nasi dan geng-geng seangkatannya.

Mungkin sudah lebih dari 200 hari.

Ya. Achievement yang sangat dibangga-banggakan untuk diri sendiri.

Bayangkan hidup tanpa makanan ruji?

Bayangkan bila balik kampung, mak masak lauk sedap-sedap tapi aku hanya makan lauk dengan roti?

Bayangkan masa hari raya hari tu aku langsung tak rasa ketupat atau lontong?

Bayangkan betapa rindunya nak makan nasi, kicap dengan ayam goreng?

Bayangkan.....

Haih.. Kadang-kadang memang rasa rindu sangat. Rindu yang sampai boleh nak nangis. lol.

Katalah apa korang nak kata..

Nasi tak menggemukkan ke..aku bodoh sebab tak makan nasi ke..cakaplah apa pun..

Sikit pun aku tak heran.

Sebabnya, dalam dunia ni hanya kita yang faham kehendak dan keupayaan diri sendiri.

Bukan kau..bukan dia..bukan orang lain.

Penangan tak makan nasi membuatkan aku dengan senangnya control berat badan sendiri.

5-7kilogram dalam masa 200 hari itu juga boleh dipandang sebagai kejayaan.

Ok. sekarang, sila cakap aku "berlagak" dan "macam bagus"

Memanglah bagus sebab bukan senang untuk berat turun sampai 5 kilogram.

Hanya tanpa makan nasi, minum air banyak bergelen-gelen dan kerja yang banyak berjalan.

Kerana kegemukan adalah antara musuh utama aku.

Dan jugak isu terbaik untuk Mummy ketawakan aku ..Hanya sebab badan da gemuk, perut da buncit, muka dah lebar dan punggung dah membesar.

Mummy selalu kata..cantik memang subjektif.

Tapi kita yang menilai diri sendiri dimana kecantikan kita dihadapan cermin dan kita yang tahu mana kelebihan kita yang perlu dijadikan aset dalam hidup.

Sampai sekarang aku masih tak makan nasi walaupun terliur tengok gambar-gambar dalam internet dan gambar lauk mak yang sering Keen upload kan dalam internet.

*Stress*

Hidup ni tak semua benda kita dapat.

Kalau ada dua benda..1 mungkin kita terlepas.

Jadi..pilihan ditangan sendiri..cubalah, tengok dan rasa..

Kalau selesa...proceed.

Kalau tak suka..tak tahan...gemuklah aku jadinya.

Jadi, sampai hari ni masih bertahan.....hidup tanpa nasi dan dengan rasa hebatnya bila pakai baju mandi yang macam dalam cerita  orang putih dekat tv.

Serius puas hati. Tak apa lah..tak makan nasi pun tak mati. :P

Tapi....sedap kan nasi? T__T

Its hard being women

Yes.

It is hard being a woman.

Especially when you are a daughter, a wife, a mother and employee at the same time.

I was wondering how these people juggling their days for a year when too many parties required a lot of attention from them.

Still, I couldn't digest the fact that facing everyday lives with too many expectations from different people and situation.

Regardless what is their position in the office and how many kids they had.. I always amazed by the way they do it.

How?

Myself always feel that "I need more time"

I am not married..and of course I am childless and for sure that I am a selfish-bitch. :P

I only have my family which consists of parents and siblings and also the no 1 priority which is my work.

Yet..I sometimes lost in the transition. I just...lost!

Every working mother-wife in this world are SUPERWOMAN

How did they control their emotions when having their PMS? or when the kids are sick..or the husband are playing this-nonsense-marriage games? or even when they having tough time at work?

I don't think I can manage all that at one time even I always believe that I am a multitask-er. Ya rite.. =.=

 "I dont know how she does it", 2011 is the movie acted by Sarah Jessica Parker which actually tell me the story of how this kind of woman deal with their everyday lives.

Salute! since I dont think I can be in their shoes (at this very moment)

And yet...another thing that always came into my mind...

Does the husband actually realised that the woman that hes married to is the Superwoman?

I do not know what these guys think.

Well..its December and I am getting better.

Living as usual despites all the circumstances and challenges.

Ehem.. singles are also facing some problems but definitely different than the superwomen's problem.

For us - singles, monthly period cramps are also one of the problems ok?

Laugh is you want to..but then respect some people's opinion.

Just because we are in different situation now, doesn't mean that we should be enemy :)

And another thing... I always have this in mind...

Why these Superwomen think that we the singles are some sort of threat to their lives and some of them also said that "Singles have not life?"

Btw, just so you know... Not being married doesnt mean these people doesn't have life and it is not definite by being married ..your life is perfect.

Respect people's choice of life. Let them be whatever they want it to be.

Regardless even if they decided to be single..married ...fuck buddies..friends with benefits..swingers..gays or just a woman who loves to be alone with her cats till she died.

Being a judgmental person doesn't bring you anywhere :)

Yes, I am bit emotional today just because its my first day of period and everything seems very bad. I mean the cramps . It is A problem and I am making big fuss of it..just because I can! ;-)

December 2012. Few more weeks to 2013.

Do you have a plan for next year?

Me? No. I just dont. :P

Have a great December, people!:D

The surgery story

8 days after the laser surgery, I dont feel 100% recovered.
Still vomitting and headache .
But, I am getting better day by day.

Resting in JB for more than a week is like a rehab to me.
Thank you Keen, mak, abah and the whole family for helping me to go through this stage..
Friends...Weewee, yoi, rara, hafizan, adit n wife, hizam, faris, yuz, aida, dev, norlie, adib..thank you for visiting and the help...morally, spiritually, monetary..
At this moment, Alhamdulillah that I actually surrounded by people who love and care about me...
Thank you... May Allah bless all of you.

What do I feel now?
Empty.
But i think im gonna vomit after this.lol
Kepala pusing!

Enjoy the photo,peeps! :)

Goodbye October

Have you ever encountered this scenario?

You have a lot of things that you wanted to share with the whole world but you lost words for each stories?

This is me in front of my laptop in the office..counting down the time to 5.30pm

But still, I cant even came out with a proper sentence to tell what has been happening for on October.

Writer's block? Fuck it. I am not a writer..

Oh. Yesterday was Wee wee's 25th birthday.

Celebrated with our exclusive spa treatments, huge Korean lunch, watched Ted in cinema and macaroons eating, talking bla bla bla..

Passed her the present and really hope that she likes it :)

I am stuck with my words. Now.

Wanted to let it out..but I just don't know how to put in a sentence.

November, please be nice since October has been very bad to me. :)

Turning 27 in 4 days time. I'm not excited at all.

No celebration needed..no present that I ever wanted this year.

I do not want anything. Really. For real.

Odd isn't? :P

Thank you for all the lessons..

Goodbye October 2012.

Tata!

Compromise

How do we manage to live up to this very day?
We planed, we choke, we tried, we stumbled, we laughed, we execute, we letting it be and too many other ways that could satisfy us.
In fact- some of the plan doesn't work out.
Again, I am afraid of planning.(As usual)

Compromising things in life is the biggest challenge in life.
Sacrificing and accept things as it is also the hardest portion in keeping ourself alive.

Here I am, on my bed.
I was here since 8.15pm.. On the mid-week!? And I couldn't even sleep..
Tried few times, but it didn't worked out. :p
Suprisingly, for the past 3 days.. What I did was..
Go to work from home - go back to home from office..
Every morning, the only place that I've stopped by before reaching the office was the small mamak shop..just to refill my nicotine box. LOL.

Compromise..compromise..for what?
I don't know what happen this week.
It started since last weekend..
Things are not falling as I was expected.
Every year, October was never treat me well. -_-
I don't know whyyyy. ;)

But that's life.
There is ups and there will be the down side of it.
Its like a ferris wheels where you might feel the excitement when you were on top and you feel bored when you at the bottom part.

Anyway..Its been a long time since I've updated my facebook status.
The interest wasn't there anymore..but I do keep track on what my circle of friends are up to..
And finally, I've updated my status with ':)'
Just that.
No particular reason.

Nothing excites me so far.
Waiting to be 27 on the 4th next month and the surgery on the 6th.. I can't wait to get over and done with it!
Hospital sucks, anyway..
Been a sick person is definitely not 'fun'.

I'm trying to get myself sleep here..
Tomorrow will be another day of routine.
I hate the word 'routine', by the way.. -____-''
But in life, you need to compromise with 1001 things..You just got to live with it ;)

Oh..Its the 17th... and I have few birthday to be celebrated this month! ;)

Good night peeps! Praying for a great day tomorrow!


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For your viewing pleasure. lol

I wanted to upload some photos taken during the surgery. Since my case is rare (due to the previous doctor's negligence- who didn't bother to realised that my nerve almost disconnected when I was attacked in 2010..BLERGGHH!)

However, I afraid that those photos might given nightmares..so..I decided not to..:)

I just keep the photos for my viewing pleasure. :P

Thanks to the nurses at Level 2, Block D and Microsurgery centre- Hospital Pantai Kuala Lumpur who took care of me during my stay. (I think I might see them again next month! hehehehe).  

19/9/12- Before the surgery: Cheerful as a cheerleader.

The result: Painful. Really. This was taken on the 20/9/12 during the first dressing treatment. It is beautiful! Thank you Dr Iskandar!

19/9/2012- After the 2 hours surgery: Still cheerful as a cheerleader! I was stoned. Results of the GA

Who knows...after 2 years...its all coming back to me.
Do take care of yourself, people. Be careful where you are..

Hello October!

One surgery, 2 days in hospital, few follow-up appointments with the doctor and many physiotherapy session doesn't make me down all time.(sometimes)

I didn't even tell anybody except family about it until I was discharged from hospital. Admitted - alone.

Just because I didn't anyone to come to visit and make a big fuss of it.. Its just a surgery.. hand surgery. :)

Besides my slip disc, the doctor discover that my nerve is almost disconnected. My small little right finger. That is the finger which been slashed during the mugged incident 2 years ago.

Two disease which is not related to each other came into my life at the same time.

4 days after the surgery, I came back to work during MC. Finishing off the workload and few events, I only finishing off my real MC in JB on the last week.

September has taught me well.

Patient is no longer here with me.

I burst the anger without realizing it. Bad.

Emotionally drown just because for few weeks I can only use one hand to eat, drive and live!

Living as a human with temporarily disability made me wonder how beautiful life is.

I still can laugh, go out  meeting friends and go to the office as usual.

I refuse to feel sick most of the time since I do not want to be labelled as a sick person.

Continuing my physiotherapy for my lil finger, I will undergo another surgery early next month.

This time around, I decided to tell everyone I know.

The laser slip disc surgery. Quite serious, isnt? Hahaha.

Two days after my 27th birthday, I'll be admitted in Pantai..(yet again)

PHKL has been my 2nd home since 2 months ago. Impressive? Haha..

Two areas in the hospital- Spine and Joint Centre also Micro Surgery Hand Centre can be considered as the most places that I've visited  other than my home and workplace.

The nurses and doctors are great. They treated me like a friend -not a patient since I always tell them- 

My name is Alia and dont refer me as "patient". :)

Furthermore, the service are excellent and of course, it worth every amount that youve paid.

Honestly - this sickness made me broke :/ LOL.

I am ok. Always try to tell myself that Im not sick.

When you are sick, there are two things left...which is your mindset to toughen your spirit and more money!

Seriously, sympathy doesn't pay your hospital bills and money has a very huge advantage on this.:)

:) Hello October!

September's Rambling

This is September Sick for me.
I'm not complaining..yet blaming anyone or anything regarding the sickness..
For me..Its a challenge given by Him.
Even sometimes, I am getting sick of swallowing too many pills everyday..or taking the hospital's elevator up and down for the physiotherapy treatment and appointment with the doctor since early of the month.

I could still laugh happily and taking it lightly..
I don't know why I am not been bothered much with this sickness..
I was given more than 10 days of hospitalisation medical home leaves and yet.. I was at the office everyday(average 4 hours per day)...
Work is my life..
I believed that is the only life that excites me every single day.

Pathetic? Nope.
If you are in my condition..your job is the greatest distraction- in order for you not to be sad and mourned about your health..

I know I could take care of myself.
This Cervical Disc Herniation is not the reason for me to feel disable..
I rather not to over thinking about it.

Well, September also brings good news to my surroundings.
It shows clearly that it is a month of Love!
Some of friends are receiving a good news on their love life!
It means more weddings and more babies next year.
I am happy for them..and I always pray for them to be continuously happy and success!

Anyway, this month made me realised few right decision I've made in the past is the best so far. :) I also decided on few other related personal recently..

Still, happiness comes from within.
2 weeks more to October 2012 and I still have not getting my motorbike's license. Pffftttt!

And....I think today is the least blue-est Monday so far for everyone since it is a replacement public holiday in conjunction of Malaysia Day celebration yesterday.

Happy belated Malaysia Day! :)



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Seratus Tiga Puluh Satu hari tanpa nasi.

Rindu sangat tau.

Aku lupa macammana rasa nasi.

Tapi aku rindu.

Tahan punya tahan..Macam tak percaya dah lebih 100 hari tak makan nasi.

Tak dapat nak digambarkan perasaan rindunya nak makan nasi.

Pengorbanan yang rasanya berbaloi sebab dalam gambar dah nampak kurus.

LOL!

Pujian harus diberikan untuk diri sendiri sebab mampu menahan nafsu serakah terhadap nasi..

Aiming for 200 days..soon!

I wish I have the same courage to restrain myself from smoking.

Blerghhhh.... -_-"

*1st day in the office after long MC. Drowsy- still. T__T

Diri sendiri jatuh cinta tengok gambar ni. Camne? ;/ Vain pot betul!

September and SD

I'm welcoming this disease into my life in early September 2012.

4 days of hospitalization medical home leave with 3 times physiotherapy session. I hope I'll be ok soon. The incident that happened 2 yrs ago is part of the reason why I am having this disease now. I can use my right hand again after a week! Yay! But still, the lenguh and I have to use the neck braces most of the time. Looking forward to the office next week! Even I am still doing work at home during the MC, I guess- working in the office is much different that typing at home. :)

Have a lovely weekend, people! Hope you have better life and stop complaining too much. =D

The August view

The view from my hotel room in Bayview Hotel, Georgetown Penang- August 2012

The view from my hotel room in Hyatt Regency Kota Kinabalu- August 2012

The view of us without Ngah (as usual) on 1st Syawal- August 2012

Wanted to but

Wanted to share thousands of things here.

Wanted to tell the whole world what is going on with my life since the last update.

Vain much?

Yes.

I always wanted the luxury of time in updating this journal.

But, obviously I have saved too many draft entry without publishing it.

Since- most of them are not interesting enough..I decided to delete them.

Well, life been nice to me these days.

Even I cant get everything in this world..

I always love what I have since my life is always different than the others.

Worklife? Soo much fun since my travelling schedule is quite packed.

I had 4 back to back events for the whole of Aug..

I believe this is the main reason of my happiness in life.

Work is fun IF ONLY you love what you do..

The enthusiasm is actually comes from the heart.

Raya?- This is the lamest raya ever.

I decided not to celebrate raya THAT long anymore.

Went back to KL on the 4th raya makes me feel alive

I had to prepare for our KK event on the 6th of raya.

No choice (in fact..I do have choice, but decided not to choose) LOL.

Raya has not being so meaningful these days.

My Director was shocked to see me back in to the office while most of the Muslims are still on their holidays...

Told him.."I dont like Raya..just because I hate people ask me some real stupid questions"

He laughed loudly.

Everything went well.

Syukran Jazilan !(Just follow what my mom always said as a sign on thankful to God)

Whatelse?

Oh..my neck and shoulder are not being very nice with me.

Clinics are the most venue I visited without failed for the past 2 months.

Hope nothing serious though. :)

*Crossing fingers now*

I received some great friendship and welcoming my old great friend to my world again.

I believed that is the biggest present for this raya.

Next?

I am broke... Yelahh..Its raya month kannnnnnnnnnnn? -_-"

Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf zahir aje..batin tak payah!

Back to Back

I've passed my 100th days without nasi last Sunday.

Yippie! Congratulations Alia! lol

Whats next?

Nothing will be changed..I will still puasa nasi till whenever I can :)

4 events back to back this August makes me feel like a real kuli.

Hello?

Everyone is a kuli, right?

The mixed emotions that I encountered makes me stronger and more fragile.

Sometimes, I feel like a superwoman..

At some point of times, I feel like a real loser.

Well.. that's life that I have choose by myself. :)

During this bulan puasa, I was not at home during most of the weekend.

Apparently, all the courses, talks happened on Sat & Sun.

Went to Penang on the 2nd week of puasa... our organisation's buka puasa event on 2nd week of puasa..then, I marked my territory at Renai -last weekend..

and leaving to my hometown---yet again this Thurs or Friday..(maybe) for the 27th of Raya celebration in my life.

Flying off to Kota Kinabalu immediately .. that is the trip that I cant wait to go.

Working on the 1st weekend of Raya is a bless for me. -_-

Raya prep?

Honestly, same like last year..I dont have the spirit of Raya anymore.

If I was given an opportunity..I am very much happy if I dont have to go back to celebrate hari Raya in my hometown..

I rather flying off to a great holiday destination during this raya...

Dont get me wrong..

This is just my opinion who doesnt really fancy raya much compared to before....:)

What Raya means to me now? - Nothing much.

Yet...I have changed few hundreds ringgit to small notes..

Duit raya giveaway....as usual.. -_-"

Baju Raya?- I leave it to Mummy.. and Wee wee had bought us a nice baju kurung ;-)

Kasut Raya?- We'll see..I still have few pairs of nice shoes from last year..

Handbag raya?- I dont think I'll buy any.. but still depends on the mood

Lagu raya- I am really sorry that this year... I dont really like to listen to any lagu raya ..

What is wrong with me??

*Nampak sangat taknak raya*

Cant wait for my KK Trip :D Yay!

8

1 Ogos.

18 hari lagi - hari jadi ke 22, Keen.

2 hari lagi- Aku akan buang kudrat dekat Penang.

4 jam lagi - Harapnya menjadilah sambal tumis ikan bilis dengan petai, ayam goreng dan lempeng untuk buat berbuka hari ni.

Pejam celik pejam celik dah masuk bulan 8.

Hari ke 13 berpuasa.

Hari ni aku masih menunggu datangnya "cuti".

Emosi macam nak makan diri dah ni :/

Tiga Puluh.7.2012

Selepas 9 hari berpuasa..

Selepas 2 hari tak menjenguk mana-mana akaun media sosial..

Selepas 85 hari tak menjamah waimah sebutir nasi..

Selepas 10 kelas renang….

Tiada apa yang membezakan kecuali menjadi manusia yang berupaya timbul dipermukaan air, tidak lagi tenggelam dan juga kurang 4-5 kilogram berat badan

Masih lagi manusia yang sama.

Mempunyai rupa, dan pelbagai attitude yang tak pernah berubah..

Cuma tugu ego makin hari makin menyerlah.

Tka perlu kutuk dan jadikan bahan umpatan hidup seharian..

Hilang pahala puasa kelak rugi berlapar dan dahaga.

J

Semakin hari semakin muak dengan surroundings yang sama dan tak banyak beza semenjak dua.

Alhamdulillah..masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas dan bergelak ketawa seadanya.

Mood annoying selalu tak pasal-pasal datang mengjengah.

Entah kenapa, aku makin hari makin menjadi-jadi perangai buruk yang susah nak di “predict”kan bila hadirnya.

PMS mungkin?

Prepare to Meet Satan? :/

LOL

10.18 am

Tekak haus sangat.

Rasa-rasanya dia dah nak dekat. -_-“

Weekend ni ke Penang.

Kerja..bukan Leisure..

Keluar dari hiruk pikuk KL yang rasanya dah semak dalam otak.

Kembali tenang harapnya lepas mengahadap pantai :D

Dia datang lagi...

Bersyukur sebab berjaya jumpa dia lagi.

Panjang umur..ketentuan tuhan..sampai masa..

Perayaan itu akan ditemui lagi.

Apa makna Ramadan dan Syawal dalam kehidupan?

Top-up pahala..berlipat kali ganda ganjaran untuk yang mengerjakannya.

Sehari sebelum Ramadan.

Aku moody bagaikan hilang akal.

Tak pasti sama ada beban kerja yang menjadi penyebab kemerosotan mood ini

Atau

pelbagai kisah yang Ya yang Tidak datang menerjah hati dan minda yang semakin berserabut

Ataupun memang aku tak dikurniakan keberkatan sempena bulan yang mulia ini?

Malam, journey bermula.

Kembali ke jajahan takluk Sultan Ibrahim seperti tahun-tahun sebelumnya.

Ramadan pertama bersama keluarga

Tidak sekelumit rasa excited tiba.

Tidak rindu apa-apa dan siapa-siapa.

Mungkin benar, aku tak dapat rahmat keberkatan Ramadan..

Macam hantu..walaupun setan da dikurung..-_-"

Bersyukur atas segala kurniaannya.

Tak payah nak bagitau semua orang..

Tak payah nak taip "I'm blessed" atau "I'm truly blessed" sepanjang masa..

Meluat semua orang jadinya..

Macam kononnya.. kau sahaja yang di"blessed" kan Allah

Mari mengadap bulan yang paling mudah untuk kita dapat pahala..

Aku? Mungkin kurang lagi hari puasa..rasanya ..

Akibat dua outstation event yang akan berjalan sepanjang Ramadan kali ini..

Kira Musafir lah kan?

Katanya.....

Day 72 and 4 kilos

I lost 4 kilos already.

Not just because of puasa nasi only..

But i add with a supplement where I believe is no longer a taboo.

10 more kilos to go to reach the weight that I always wanted.

Happiness is all around me yesterday.

Within 17 days..I lost that weight..

My arms look smaller..the bloated perut doesnt seems so obvious anymore.

Happy bunny..that is what I am :)

Drinking a lot of water helps a lot in reducing what I called "the baby-fat"

I dont feel that "kembang" anymore.

I lost my appetite to eat at night..

Breakfast is important. I never skip breakfast anymore.

Munching- is a very bad eating habit..I guess.

Perfect body is always be in anyone dreams.

Nobody wanted to look fat and to be overweight.

Therefore...here I am..

Being a typical woman who is always afraid of being fat.

Based on the BMI..

I am still in the "overweight" group.

Few more kilos to be lose in order for me to be back as "normal" in the BMI calculation.

Need to work had to reach the target.

Hope it will be much easier soon especially during this Ramadan.

:)

Selamat berpuasa to all the Muslims!

"Salah Bantal"

Hari ke 5 berperang dengan "salah bantal"

Bukan bantal yang hendak disalahkan disini..

Tetapi akibat keasyikan tidur malam yang terlampau enak membuatkan kedudukan leher tidak stabil dan menyebabkan kekejangan urat leher dan "salah bantal" pun berlaku.

Ya. Sudah 5 hari membawa kepala bagaikan seorang Robocop.

Tak cool langsung.

Hilang style.

Bila nak pandang ke kiri, leher tak mampu nak dipusingkan.

Dengan badan-badan terus turut berpusing ke kiri.

Pasrah dan redha.

Kesakitan ini membuatkan aku diberi MC selama dua hari.

Bekerja selama 7 hari sepanjang minggu lalu membuatkan tahap stress naik pada kadar 8.9

Dengan shotting corporate video yang berlangsung 5 hari dan pada masa yang sama aku perlu koordinasikan segala keperluan conversion course untuk para Arbitrator yang sememangnya diva..membuatkan aku rasa..

Atas tak sampai bawah tak jejak.

Bukan senang menjadi seorang sahaja Kuliketive tunggal yang berjaya dalam sebuah department.

LOL.

Tak berjaya sangat pun.

Tapi, dengan bantuan colleagues yang mana rajin tolong si budak Marcom yang tinggal seorang tertonggang tonggeng settlekan training materials ni..Alhamdulillah..kurang lah sikit beban dan sakit badan..

Tapiiii.......

hampir demam (actually memang dah demam..selsema..migraine 7hari seminggu) dan MC dua hari pun macam tak MC bilamana laptop perlu dibawa balik bagi melangsaikan segala hutang piutang kerja.

This is really fun sebenarnya.

Aku je yang dah lama tak dicabar sebegini rupa.

Faktor umur dan kemalasan yang disebabkan kemanjaan dari segi masa bekerja dan dah banyak sangat rileks since takde event selama 3 bulan...inilah semua yang menyebabkan aku terus diserang pelbagai penyakit stress dan mengada-ngada.

Hari ke 5, leher masih macam Robocop.

Keen kata, leher Iron Man.

Yang pasti..aku hilang nikmat dunia untuk pusing ke kiri dengan mudahnya sementara waktu..

Pasrah..menyerah..berdoa..

Ammeltz Yoko-yoko botol warna merah ni sebenarnya panas jugak bila da kena pada kulit.

Tolong ketawakan aku..dan pada masa yang sama...doakan aku supaya pulih seperti sediakala.

Seksaaa ooo..

Hari Rabu yang rileks sikit.

Sikit je.

Tak sabar nak balik JB hujung minggu lepas kelas berenang Jumaat ni.

Cuti Isnin dan approved.

Yippie!!!!

Ramadan datang lagi..

Ucap syukur sebab mampu bertemu bulan yang senang nak dapatkan pahala ni.

Alhamdulillah..

Disappointed

Disappointed is just a temporarily feeling.
In life, you can't win it all.
But, you have to adjust yourself to fit into certain situation which could place you far away from a feeling called disappointed.

Everyday, I tried my very best from not disappoint anyone especially myself.
This feeling, even its temporarily..but I forsee that this could make your life upside-down if you get carried away with it.

You maybe try your very best in doing everything just the way you want it to be..
But somehow, even you plan it well, it doesn't mean it would be perfectly done.
Too many facts can be reason for you to feel disappointed.
That is why I always hate to plan anything.
I think that adhoc could always surprise me in a good way.
Btw, I only start planning when comes to my work..since it has to be planned and executed properly in order to make it successful.

Well..life is like this..and sometimes..life is like that.
This temporarily feeling has to go away.
I wouldn't let it stay in my mind and disturb my everyday life. :)

Long week ahead..I'll be working for 7 days straight starting tomorrow.
Yay! I love this kind of commitment since I am scared of the real commitment in life.
Work..is something that I am good at, now :)
Attacked by mild fever during the weekend, I am much better now..
Nothing much changed..still fat and look the same (as in the photo)

Have a great week everyone!
Don't let the 'dissapointed feeling' disturb you..
It is just temporarily..anyway!
Good luck! :)



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July, be nice :)

4th day of July in 2012.

This is the 2nd day of me being "anak tunggal/anak tunggol" in the department.

Since two of my senior exec left their position in this office, I am the only kuliketive that belongs to Marcom.

Was I afraid?

Not.

I experienced one of the hell scenario back in 2009.

When I was working for LIMA.

Apparently, my immediate boss was MIA on my 2nd week of employment.

Lost in translation.- that was really bad.

"So-called" heading a corporate communications department with no assistant at all-at age 24 was not easy.

Trying hard to be Independent but still kelam kabut.

That was I am.

With my limitation of experience and I have no idea what was all about..

I managed to get help from the big bosses, the previous head of department which I get to know from colleagues, friends and other related person in the industry.. Well... it was harder than expected.

Thank God, I made it right.

and again...the similar scenario came into the picture..

I was much calm and relax.

I work following the usual system which I prefer and try to manage the workload very well.

I am not entirely alone, anyway..

My HOD, my manager is still around..

I am following the right track and go to the exact direction as told and try to give some option based on the logic and experience that I gained for the past 4 years of working...

Anyway, I survived the first day and today ..I hope it will be smooth as well.

Life is like this...

I was a job hopper..

Jumping from one to another job without hesitation for the sake of better life..

When I finally found my ground..

This is the time that people left me to reach their target and to fulfill their life expectations.

I always tell myself that Life is a roller-coaster.

You will not be on top..always and do prepare to be on the ground at anytime.:)

Interviewed one of the candidate to replace the sr.exec position yesterday..of course with the presence of the Manager, HOD, DD and Datuk Director.. and another interviewed to be made within an hour from now...

Lets see, who is the catch and need to analyse the character of the person that I will work with.

After-all, my line up of bosses I have now - is the best so far in my 4 years tenure of working in the industry.

Nothing is really perfect anyway..

Therefore, I thank Allah for making my life better each and everyday.

BTW, today marks my 54th day without nasik! Yay!

Have a good Wednesday, people!

Why No Nasi?

Some people laughed at me when I said..

"I tak makan nasi..'

Some people was being very supportive when I said..

"Its my 47th day without nasi"

Who have thought I went this far.

Not even me!

Eating rice is part of life.

As a Malay who living in Malaysia..

I am surrounded by "nasi-eater" and most of the eateries using nasi as their main dish.

50 days ago, I realised that I was bloated.

I can feel that my fat is happily inviting some of their friends to join them living in my body.

I feel heavy and I received a lot of comments especially from my mom who always hates to see her girl adding some extra pounds.

Yes..she make some painful comments when we (the siblings) are getting fat.

I looked into the mirror and try to understand what went wrong.

Apparently...its not actually because of nasi..

It is because..I am much happier these days.

Having a work life balance and happiness is the key word for all that.

I am the person who wouldnt eat much if I'm stressed.

I do eat a lot and enjoying my food to the maximum limits when I am happy.

However, when the "M" size is no longer fit into my body..that is when I realised that enjoying the food cant be a good combination to show my happiness.

Therefore, I started my-usual-kind-of diet which is..

Stop eating rice at all.

Not even "sebutir"

I am a nasi-lover.

I once said..Aku mati kalau tak makan nasi..

But yet, when comes to diet.

I am strict towards myself.

Done once, or twice befpre

Didn't even touch nasi for more than 100 days.

I am going to do it again this time around. :D

Don't say that I am strong.

I am not.

I am trying very hard to do this..

The determination..the cravings.. Nasi is so irresistible.

Its my 47th day.

I feel less heavier..

My constipation problem almost gone!

I am still alive even without nasi :)

Coming 50 days.

I am excited as child. =D